hello.
here i am in lab.
ms tay not here.
so yeah.
too bored.
so played solitaire all.
with sara.
haha.
darn funny pls.
msging alfee.
dont know if i should pon religious class.
then study at home.
i really feel stuidious thi\ese few days.
really.
bleah.
okaye.
thats all.
bye bye.




sorr if it was mushy mans.
anyway.
im bored.
gosh.
i need MILO.
i want school badly!
cause of MILO!
: (

its good for your health okaye.
who say it isnt.
it gives me ENERGY!
yeah!
haha.
okaye how random can i get.
bye.
night




just watched happy feet again.
then i said to jas,
if only you asked what i would do for you,
my answer would be.
i would catch the fish from the HAWK just like how he did!
then jas laugh.
haha.
but i meant it.
: )

im sorry for all the pressure you've got from me.
or them.
anything.
im sorry for eveything.
im sorry for doing what i did.
im sorry.
even tht time i went out with __,
everything we did,
made me think of you.
made me miss you.
everything.

;cant stop pretending,
nothing can make me stop my strong feelings for you.


those tears you cried,
how i wish i could wipe it for you.
those times you bite your lips to stop yourself from tearing,
and you told me,
i felt the pain.
how i wsh i was there.
you say im not there when you cry,
i am.
i always were.
but do me a fav,
and let me be there.
how can i be there when you dont want to open up to me.


vday.
the card i made.
everything.
how i cracked my brain.
on how to make you happy.
and make you ahve one of the best gifts on vday.
i waited waited for your msg.
a thank you at least.
2 hours.
4 hours.
at last 1 oclock,
you msged.
thanks for the plastic bag,
now i can fit all my 100 gifts.
wah!
plastic bag,
i can get you how many you want also,
for FREE!
wah sei.
really not mean wht.
but nvmd,
i know wht you meant.


your just unique,
in all ways.


nothing can erase wht have had happened.
but hope everything will start afresh.

:)
girl,i promise you,
my feelings are so strong.




confusion kills.

anyway.
to you.
im sorry if ive neglected you.
but things that has been happening between made me confused.
i dont wanna talk bout it.
anyway,
its still you.
that i want.



alfee,
thanks a million.
for making me feel needed.
loved.
cared.
all thanks to you.
im sorry if im mean towards you.
but i love you.
alot.
: )
alrights?
so dont always cry lurr.
okaye>?
a ra so?
haha.




i cant so describe
how im feeling deep inside
so much more than i can say
with your touch it feels so right
oh my your so near
all the time in this place
for i know in my heart
i will never let you go

cause when i
trying so hard not to look in your eyes
maybe i
have fallen in love you


long long ago song.
haha.
eileen.




valentines went well.
watched EPIC movie.
nonsense show.
but funny.
went with sharon jas cai and al.
yeah guess thats all.



shit man.
you tell me.
i know you should know.
in the cinema.
what happened to us.
why did i feel so comfortable having you by my side.
why do i feel like as if we are together.
why did i get trapped in the comfort.
god dammit why!
i know im NOT suppose to say this.
but with you practically sitting next to me,
without realising your hand touches.
instead of feeling EEEE,
i was comfortable.
am i thinking too much.
i swear i never did seee this coming.
oh wells,
maybe its cause your my valentine,
that made me feel tht way.
maybe.
did you feel the same?
you said you did.
but isit true.
if it is,
why are we feeling that way.
i love her.
but now.
shit.




conclusion for today,





SINGAPORE WON THE CUP!
LIKE DUH!
SO MUCH TENSION!
BUT YEAH,
WORTH IT.
AND ALAM SHAH LIKE SO TOTALLY ROCKS PLS.
HAHA.


bbye(:










i wont be like others who LIE.
totally LIE all the way.

"i will wait for you forever!"(DUH not forever!)
"your in my mind 24/7"(well, for me only 21/7.hee:) )
"its you whose always on my mind"(well,not exactly.but most of the time.yeah)

i cant deny the facts.
this is wrong.
and OBVIOUSLY it wont be a forever thing.
but,
let me tell you something which is NOT a lie.

my feelings.


is this love?
whats love?
i know this is wrong path.
its wrong in the book.
BUT,
i know its not only "like".
i dont know what your gonna call it.
but its not a lie.

my feelings are sincere,
my feelings are true,
ive never been so serious to someone,
except you.


i cant deny that i do want to be with you.
but at the same time i dont.
i dont know why.
maybe cause of the past.
i dont know.
but this valentine,
even if your not coming.
ill be quite down.
but i wont be like shocked or smth.
cause i got it last year.
i waited, waited waited.
end up you had project.
but end up you went....
okaye nvmd.
im being petty, maybe.
but yeah.
what im trying to say is,
i dont lie bout my feelings.




i wasnt born to tell you i love you
but i....




do.




well.
just got scolding from my grandmother.
well shouldnt rub into it.
BUT, sigh.
seriously its not my fault.
my parents know im going home late.
ANYWAYS,
nothing much today i guess.
but yeah.
todays assembly was darn funny!
hahah.
me and sidd laugh like shit pls!
hahah.
should say why.
hhaa.
then then then.
got band.
so on so on.
then went dinner with cai jassy glo mich sharon bidin.
yeah.
as usual lor.
then like tht.
erm i guess thats all.



im sorry if i didnt really talk.
but i scared whatever i say makes you angry.
yeah.




GAYS UNITE!
my brother bought for me. cute right. haha
the first thing i saw in class,was my TABLE!
my clique design. haha.
can you see the container at the side?
:l gave me! YUMMY MANS!

tsk tsk! haha.
my second birthday cake! yay!
thanks once again :l! : )

ONE of my suprise gifts form :l.

as unique as i expected. so yeah.haha.
once again, my TABLE! : )
from cass and sidd! love them!

i guess thats all that i ahve form my brithday.
yeah.
thanks to all those who gave me presnets and suprises.
ill never forget that day ever.
thanks.




why do i feel as if the whole worlds crashing onto me
why do i feel as if no ones needing me
why do i prioritise their happiness before mine
how can i be so silly

they just dont see what i do for them
they just know how to order me
they never care what ive been dying to say
if ever i open my mouth, they all will be darn angry

HELLO, how selfish can you all be
never fail to find the smallest mistakes that i do
but never really care bout what you did wrong
or all the 'giving in' that ive done for all of you

what exactly do you want me to do
how contradicting can you get
whether i do what you want or i dont
end up you will still get mad!

im trying so hard here just to make you happy
but i guess i fail to do that simple thing
you actually even find me irritating

i guess i shouldstop doing what ive been doing
and juststop bothering you
maybe thats the only way to make you happy
maybe thats what youve been wanting me to do.





sigh.
ive nothing to say.
but your so contradicting.
that i dont know which part of what you say, i should do.
i talk to you,wrong.
i never talk, wrong.
HELLO.
then wht you want me to do.
im tired okaye.
thats why when i see you ill just keep quiet.
but,
a yar.
i miss you lar

pls always dont always get angry.
im tired of it lar.
i knw its my fault.
but,
a yar.
nvmd.




i guess i should just shutup,
since whtever i say angers people.
whtever is just crap.
since its so annoying and disgusting.
fine,
shutting up is the only way,
to please you all right?
then ill do it.
have you all wonder how i feel?
you all bossing me around.
me just listening to all you angers and stuff.
letting you vent it on me.
me listening to your complaints patiently.
as long as you will be happy.
but have you all really thought of how i feel>
putting others happiness first.
if you dont know then let me tell you.
ITSUCKS!
GET IT?!
IT SUCKS!
forget it lar.
yar.
my fault my fault.
it has always been and will always be right?



im sorry to annoy YOU.
its really unintentional.
you dont want me to talk bout all those?
i wont.
but dont be angry.
if im irritating, tell me.
so i know.
but if you keep quiet and continue being annoyed,
that will start a fight.
and im isck og fighting with you.
cause i dont want to.
i just want to be happy with you.
get it?

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