high school musical

you know the world can see us, in a different way than who we are




recently.
a ya.
lazy to blog.
bye ah.




i tear my heart open
i saw myself shut
my weakness is that i care too much
the scars remind me that my past is real
i tear my heart open
just to feel.


gonna sleep now.
goodnight.
jean says night too.




BACK FROM ART!
gosh man.
today i really focused in my art.
hee.
yay!
happy happy.
one of the few who left the latest.
then me and brudder went to eat dinner.
then went home.
the moment i step into my room(no one at home)
i saw MISS JEAN SLEEPING LIKE A PIG OKAYE!
ON MY BED!
i was so pissed okaye.
i CLEANED up my bed in the morning.
and for ME,FEEFI, to do that is a miracle okaye.
then i shouted then she still want to sleep.
idiot.
until now okaye.
she waiting for her daddy to fetch her home.
but maybe im asking her to stay over again.
she around very fun.
haha.
okaye.
enough.
gnna buy miss jean dinner now.
bye bye




i used to think that your not worth being with,
so put you aside and went for her,
but now i realise your the one there for me always,
i cant believe i din notic you and cant believe i was THAT blurr.

but im glad she did all those shits to me that made me leave her,
cause now i begin to realise that ive neglected you,
now ill make sure the oast wont repeat itself,
and ill try to make an effort to spend more time with you.


thanks for waiting for me.




HAHA!
IM LATE FOR ART AGAIN!
JOYCE AND JEAN LA.
BOTH SAY WANNA WAKE ME UP INSTEAD BOTH ALSO I WAKE THEM UP WAN!
HAHA.
I WAS IN DREAMLAND.
THEN I SLOWLY WAKE UP.
THEN JEAN BESIDE ME STILL SNORING.
THEN I LOOK AT THE TIME.
945!!
THEN I WAS LIKE SO CHIX!
JEAN JEAN WAKE UP!
HAHA.
THEN SHE STIL WANT TO SLEEP/
THEN I FASTER WAE JOYCE UP.
AFTER THAT I WENT BACK TO SLEEP.
NOW JUST WOKE UP.
LATE BUT STILL ONLINE.
HEE.
OK LA.
GOING ALREADY.
BYE BYE


this is a part from craig's song.

feeling like a fool cause I let you down
now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more ..




june 22
a day to remember always.
after all ive been through.
its nice to have someone new.
haha.
dots




firstly.

JEAN
im sorry.
i know i ignored you last time.
and i treated you badly.
i used to find you irritating cause you always tel me that you er that me.
ANYWAY.
i just want to say im sorry.
i know i neglected you when i was "with" her.
im sorry alright.
now smile smile?
happy?
long enough?
haha.
hey!
but im SINCERE.
haha.
i guess it was me last time who din give myself a chance to understand you better.
and i always made used of you.
i know how that feels cause ive been thru it all along.
you know me best man.
love you lots gal.
thanks.
appreciate it.
:)
MAN!
I COMPLIMENTED YOU ENOUGH!
HAHA.
now you ego on the fone.
wa kau.
buay tahan.
haha.
enough bout jean.
now bout today.


yesterday went chalet.
sleptover.
daddy brought my guitar.
so my cousins were like pestering me to play.
so i played.
then my cousin was so excited to compose song with me.
haha.
so cute la she.
then we wrote a song.
then ya.
sleptover.
suppose to go to the beach.
BUT,
as you know FEEFEE always oversleeps.
so i overslept.
then rush out of chalet.
then rush home.
met joyce go for art.
at....
twelve PLUS!
hee/
then mdm tan ask to buy tissue paper for her.
haha.
then we bought.
then stayed there for awhile.
then rushed off with brudder/
to meet jean.
cause suddenly miss her lots la.
so. ya.
then we went out.
then slack at my house.
then we slept for awhile.
then my cousin ask me out.
so i rushed to suntec city.
then wait for her to finish her work.
after that she went and my another cousin went to MANGO SALE!
i only could perservere for TWENTY MINUTES.
DAMN CROWDED.
BUAY TAHAN.
then i said i wait outside.
haha.
then after HALF AN HOUR later we went bugis.
pass some stuff to some people.
shant elaborate.
then walk walk walk walk.
then nabilah went to have her manicure.
then me and cik noi went to eat.
after that we walk walk again.
then went home at around 9 like that.
and here i am.
"THANKS" for forcing me to buy a t shirt which has a GIRL logo on it
and EARRINGS cik noi.
haha.
joking.
thank you!
:)
thats all.

ok ok.
i am FORCED to say this.
I MISS JEAN LIM!
oops.
its out.
haha.
goodnite.




idont hate her.
but yet i dont like her at the same time.
i dont know why whenever i see her.
ill just go blank.
dont know to hate or to what.
if i follow my heart.
god dam.
i really want to hate her.
but for what rite?
its all crap la.
another thing ah.
i dont know why.
ill wait for YOUR message like a...
errr
dog wanting a bone?
haha.
no la.
i mean.
suddenly i have the urge to talk to you.
instead of her.
maybe i dislike her cos of you.
i dont know.
but what i know you keep her out of my mind.
shit.
dont tell me i like you AGAIN.
i did once and i am again?!
shit.
hope not.
but i just want to thank you for being there.
and naz too.
thanks/

okaye.
today still had fever.
but suprisingly my temperature went down.
thank god.
parents nearly dont allow e go to school.
then went to meet bidin and cai.
ok not important bout that.
den actually wanted to go home okaye.
then stupid huiling ask me pass her chocolates to her PERSONALLY.
then no choice i walked to school.
then went for band.
then waited for huiling like wait for money drop from sky.
haha!
then she thanked me and al la.
then thought just wanna stay there for awhile.
then mr tan was like feefi you not playing?
obivously ill play rite!
miss my tuba like mad man!
haha.
so i played ah.
had exchange programme with queenstown sec.
tuba section okaye la.
not so band/
gotta bond. (somehow)
sorry you all.
but i cant remember your names cos all chinese names.
hee.
very difficult.
but ya.
then i rushed off after band.
met naz for awhile to pass her stuff.
then went home.
and here i am.
okaye.
bye bye




HELLO.
TODAY WAS A FUN DAY.
ITS LIKE IVE RENEW MYSELF.
HAHA.
OKAYE DOTS.
BUT YEA.
TRUE.
ART LESSON STARTS AT 9.
I CAME BEFORE 830 OKAYE.
WAS THE FIRST TO REACH THERE.
PLS NOTE: FIRST!
HAHA.
THEN DURING ART I REALLY LIKE FOCUS I DID MY WORK AH.
EXCEPT FOR SOMETIME WAS MSGING FROGGY.
HAHA.
THEN AFTER THAT AROUND 11 PLUS.
ALL MY FRENS WERE WHINING SAYING THAT THEY WERE HUNGRY.
ESPECIALLY ALEXIA.
HAHA.
DAMN FUNNY.
THEN WENT TO ADAMS FOODCOURT WITH
BRUDDER,BABY,ALEX,JIM AND BELINDA.
MOST OF US ATE NASI LEMAK
YUMMY!
HAHA.
JIM WAS GRAVING FOR ICE KACHANG.
BUT THE SHOP WAS CLOSED.
SHE WAS SO HEART BROKENED.
HAHA.
THEN ME JOYCE AND BABY DRANK TEA.
BUT ME AND JOYCE WAS FREAKING THIRSTY.
SO WE DRANK TWO CUPS.
HAHA.
THEN WE WERE ON THE WAY BACK TO SCHOOL.
ME AND JOYCE SERIOUSLY WANTED TO PUKE AND POO POO OKAYE.
BUAY TAHAN ALREADY.
HAHA.
THEN REACHING SCHOOL.
ME AND JOYCE MADE UP A SHITTING SONG FROM "YOU MAKE ME WANNA"
AHAH!
DAMN FUNNY.
OKAYE.
THE NEXT THING WILL BE KINDA DISGUSTING BUT IT WAS FREAKING FUNNY.
ME AND JOYCE WERE LIKE 2 CUBICLES AWAY.
WE WERE TALKING TALKING TALKING.
HAHA.
LIKE AS IF THE WHOLE TOILET BELONG TO US OKAYE.
THEN JOYCE WAS LIKE "EH BRUDDER SORRY IF YOU HEAR MUSIC AH."
THEN I WAS THINKING HUH.WAD MUSIC.
THEN I THINK THINK.
THEN I WAS LIKE YUCKS!!
HAHAH!
THEN WE LAUGH LAUGH LIKE MAD.
WE DON EVEN KNOW IF GOT PEOPLE IN THE TOILET LA.
HAHA.
THEN WE PLAYED WTH THE METAL THINGY AND EVEN FLUSH
HAHA!!
DAMN FUNNY.
THEN WENT FOR ART AGAIN.
THE DID MY WORK.
THEN WENT OFF AT 4 PLUS.
AND HERE I AM.
HAHA.
OWE FROGGY CHOCS.
HAHA.
OKAYE GOTTA GO AND STUDY.
BYE BYE




fuck it man.
wads wrong with me.
why fucking like her man!
she doesnt appreciate you fee.
not only you.
even your friendship.
she may say that.
but only for that time being.
and man i had enough of the fucking shit i got!
you're asking me why i so jix?!
and you said sorry if you're mean and its too bad cos you cant change!
eh hello!
you noe wad being mean leads to or not ah?
you being to me,
hurts me.
and you sae sorry like nothing you noe or not!
fuck man!
then too bad also man.
cos i cant take you anymore.
i dont deserve you la ok!
you dont appreciate me.
so why must i do the same?
i feel like screaming at your face la okaye!
ah!
fuck't la!




i seriously dont know where to start,
but wht im gonna say all comes from my heart.

now i feel so lost and confused,
all just cause of the stupid you,
SHE never fails to make me happy,
but i cant understand why it just cant be you.

why must it be someone whose not so important to me,
why must it be someone else,
i couldnt understand anything till i read your blog,
well,everything from there tells.

all the promises turns to lies,
all the smile turns to cries,
all the happiness crashes and became sadness,
all the sweet memories to me are all just curse.

well of course we are still friends and all,
but when you turn into that someone i start to hate you,
cause its not only the person i like,
that person is also not the bestfriend i use to have too.

when that time i told you that i had enough,
you said you hated yourself and will try to change,
well i wont deny that you did tried and changed,
but too bad it was only a temporary change.

cause now you're back to that person,
now i can be so angry at you till i cant describe,
but wht i know that somehow itll all fade away,
and when you need me i would still be by your side.

well i admit that i am that stupid person,
who still likes you even after being treated like a junk,
whose not important person in your life,
seriously after i read that my heart just sunk.

you can find me irritating talking bout this kinda stuff always,
but come on man,try being in my shoes and you will know why,
if you were in my shoes,you would left me long time ago,
you know why im stil here?cos i still love you.that is why.

but i guess the way how i feel should stop,
cause im just being a stupid bloody fool,
cause im just not appreciated by you after all ive been through,
i just want to inform you that its not true,if you think we're cool.

cause im now thinking of stopping everything,
i know ive said lots of time,
well that shows how many chances i gave you,
but now i just have to face it that ul definitely not fit to be mine.

you said you cant msg and all,
if i meant at least something important to you,
you should at least had made an effort to maybe call or smth,
but you didnt.so you get wht im trying to say do you.

okaye i guess i said enough,
maybe i should appreciate other people who cares for me,
rather someone else who treats me like junk,
i dont know if ul read this but i hope you do cos i want you to see.




HELLO HELLO.
JUST BACK FROM AUNT HOUSE.
SLEPTOVER THERE.
ANYWAY.
GOOD JOB BILAH FOR YEST PERFORMANCE!
NOT BAD AT ALL.
YOUR BRASS IS THE BEST!
THE TROMBONE SECTION STOLE THE SHOW MAN!
AND EVEN THE PERCUSIONISTS!
WORKMANSHIP MAN!
ALL EYES WERE ON THEM!
ANYWAY TODAY GOING VCH AGAIN.
BUT TODAY IS ACJC.
YUPYUP.
PICKING JAS UP FROM SCHOOL.
DEN RUSH TO VCH.
OKAYE OKAYE.
GOTTA GO NOW.
BYE BYE :)




IVE BEEN UP THIS FEW DAYS WATCHING WORLD CUP MAN.
THE ONES ALWAYS WATCH.
SOMEONE WATCHES TOO.
IN HER DREAMLAND.
HAHA.
ANYWAY.
YA.
BRAZIL IS SO GONNA WIN MAN!!
MUAHAHA!
ENGLAND..
ERR. SORREH AH!
HAHA.
YESTERDAY.
WAH SEI JAPAN AND AUSTRALIA.
ACTUALLY 1 ALL LA.
DEN AUSTRALIA SCORED 2 SCORES IN 6 SECONDS MAN!
haha.
JAPAN LOSE FACE ALR.
MAYBE THEY LOST CONCENTRATION LA.
HAHA.
ANYWAYS...
BYEBYE :)




12JUNE2006
HEY HEY.
OKAYE BOUT YESTERDAY.
NAZ CAME OVER.
MOVIE MARATHON.
SPOSE TO GO BUGIS.
BUT DUE TO SOME STUFF WE CANT.
SO INSTEAD WE STAYED AT MY HOUSE AND HAD MOVIE MARATHON.
HEE.
ERR.
IN BETWEEN SOME STUFF HAPPENNED.
BUT..
A YA.
NVMD.
I GUESS THATS IT LA.

13 JUNE 2006
TODAY.
SPOSE TO GO OUT AH.
BUT I HAVING FEVER.
YEA.
LOTS OF STUFF COMING UP MAN.
TMORO BILAH PERFORMANCE.
FAJAR SEC SYMPHONIC BAND/
DEN THURSDAY GOT TWO THINGS.
MORNING UNTIL AFTERNOON GOING SENTOSA.
WITH BRUDDER AND OTHER FRENS.
DEN AFTER THAT WILL RUSH BACK TO SCHOOL.
TO FETCH JASMINE.
THEN WILL GO TO VCH.
YA.
THEN FRIDAY HAVING COUSIN OUTING.
GOING SHOPPING,DEN GO PLAY SOCCER ALL AH.
YA.
THATS ALL.
HAVE TO GO NOW.
I GUESS I TALK BOUT YOU TOO MUCH THAT I GUESS I SHOULD STOP YEA.
:)
BYEBYE






before i start anything to blog.
i jus want to say i miss this fren of mine.
maybe my attitude disgusts her or smth.
i mean if other ppl hate me nvmd.
but shes like one of the closest to me.
even i can sae use to be closer to me than any of my own frens.
but now dono why.
she stop msging.
miss the way wen shes bored.
den she'll beg me to call.
den if i don she'll sae shes gna shoot me.
haha.
but ya.
just want to say im sorry la to that person.




I JUS REMEMBERED MY COUSIN.
THE ONE LAST TIME I SAID VERY PRETTY.
I MEAN DONO WHY I SUDDENLY MISS HER.
I CHANGE FON DEN HER NUMBER IN THE FON.
SO SHIT LA.
DEN I OSO CHNAGE NUMBER.
SO SHE WONT BE ABLE TO CONTACT ME.
DEN ITS LIKE SHES MY FAR DISTANT COUSIN.
SO NOT ALL OF THE FAMILY GATHERING SHE IS NEEDE TO COME AH.
BLEA.
SO SHITIFIED.
LET ME EMPHASIZE AGAIN MAN.
SHES VERY PRETTY MAN.
EVEN BECKY THINK SO.
HAHA.
SHES HALF 3/4 CHINESE 1/4 MALAY.
ER.
I NOE.
SAME LIKE SOMEONE RITE.
YEA
BU SHE SPEAKS MALAY AND YALA.
MORE TO MALAY SIDE.
BUT SHE LOOK LIKE A PURE CHINESE GIRL MAN.
A YA.
HOPEFULLY GOT ANOTHER FAMILY GATHERING DEN CAN MEET.
WE PLAN ALOT LAST TIME LA PLS.
STUDY TOGETHER.
GO OUT.
DEN NOW LOST CONTACT
:(
OKLA.
BYE




NAZ DAM FUNNY LA PLS!
HAHA.
COS SHE CALLED.
DEN WE TALK TALK.
DEN I SAE I GOING BATAM.
DEN SHES LIKE SO CHIX.
SHE SAE WHY MUST YOU GO.
OVER THERE NO GOOD.
MANY MANY BAD THINGS.
DEN I SAE LIKE WAD?
DEN SHE SAE KEPT QUIET.
DEN I WAS LIKE OI LIKE WAD.
DEN SHES LIK SHH..CANNOT SAE.
LATER MY MAID HERE DEN SHE ANGRY.
DEN SHE WHISPER TO ME prostitutes.
I WAS LIKE CHEY!
SHE DAM CUTE LA WHENEVER SHE WHISPER LIKE THAT.
HAHAH
MADE MY DAY MAN.
MY GOODNESS.
HAHA.
I TOLD HER NOW I BLOGGING BOUT HER.
DEN SHES LIKE EEYER WHY YOU BLOG BOUT ME.
SO LITTLE.MUST BLOG MORE.
HAHA. EGO LA SHE.
MAN.
SERIOUSLY NEVER REGRET KNOWING YOU MAN.
HAHA.
I TOLD HER THAT LINE.
DEN SHES LIKE SO NOW YOU MUST CHANGE YOU BLOG LINK TO
DONREGRETKNOWINGYOU.BLOGSPOT.COM
HAHA.
DOTS LA.
OKAYE.
CHAO.
BYE


NAZ AH NAZ.
YOU NOT CUTE WAD.
HAHA.
EVEN JASMINE AND JOYCE FIND YOU CUTE.
HAHA.
OK OK.
ENOUGH F COMPLIMENTS MAN.
WHY YOU DAM MALAY POK AH!
DON EVEN HAVE BLOG.
STOOPID...GIRL.
HAHA




the ones going out.
me want to go out with two.
but two say she rather stay at home.
you not mean wad.
not even willing to go out with me.
nvmd heng got naz
anyways...
hungry hungry hungry!
me want to eat!
hee
fever.
din go school.
bye




I MADE UP MY MIND.
I SHAL NOT EVER CUT HAIR.
BUT AT LEAST EVERY MONTH MUST THINNER MY HAIR.
HEE.
JUST THINNER MY HAIR.
SOMEONE DON ALLOW ME CUT SHORT.
SO FORM NOW ON I SHAL KEEP IT THE SAME LENGTH BUT THINNER IT.
ANYWAY.
SOMEONE IS SICK.
BUT REFUSES TO GO DOCTOR.
TSK TSK.
STUBBORN SEI.
TALKING TO NAZ.
BYE




HEY YO.
NOT REALLY GONNA BLOG LA.
JUST WANNA TYPE SOMETHING.
HEE.
ITCHY HAND.
ANYWAY.
BYE.
GONNA PLAY SOCCER WITH BRO AND NABIL.
BYEBYE




X MEN II FUN FUN FUN!
HAHA.
BUT THIS PARTICULAR IRRITATING GIRL CALLED NAZ!!
(PLS NOTE THIS: IRRITATING GIRL)
HAHA.
SHHH.
SHE NEVER SEE DIS.
SHE BUSY WATCHING THE MOVIE.
HAHAH.
OK KIDDING.
SHES NICE LA.
ANYWAY BACK TO THE SHOW!
AH!
CYCLOPS(is dis how you spell it?err nvmd.hee) DIED!!!
AHHH!!
WHY GOD!WHY!
HAHAH.
OK OK.
GONNA CONTINUE WATCHING.
OH YA.
ME,FEEFEE,NUR SHAFIWAH,WHO IS A PROFESSIONAL BUMMER,CONCENTRATED SURING SOCIAL STUDIES LESSON!! WOOHOO!!
ANSWERED NEARLY ALL QUESTION!
MUAHAH.
OK OK.
STOP STOP.
CHAO!
BYEBYE.
NAZ DAM CHIX.
BUAY TAHAN.
HAHA









Taking my time
I'm trying to leave the memories of you behind
I'm gonna be fine
As soon as I get your picture right out of my mind

[CHORUS]

I wanna feel the way you make me feel when I'm with you
I wanna be the only hand,
you need to hold on to
But everytime I call you
don't have time
I guess I'll never get to call you mine

For nothing at all,
I know theres a million reasons why I shouldn't call
With nothing to say,
could easily make this conversation last all day

[CHORUS]

Another lesson I didn't get to learn Your my obsession
I've got nowhere to turn




can you imagine?
you and dis person used to be freaking close.
both always go out together.
used to like each other.
and today went to the same place coincidentally but acted like strangers.
do i hate her?
do i?
i dono.
but im fucking pissed!
you left without a fucking reason.
bestfrens huh?
i dono bout dat.
you don even fucking treat me like a fren la.
how mean can you get ah?
ok fine ive said enough.
maybe all dis is cause you have lots in mind.
but come on la.
if you told me bout it,at least ill noe rite.
wat fuck man!
maybe its true la.
ur either too mature for me.
or too childish for me la.
i fucking dono la.
i dono.
hopefully you're better now ya?
you deserve someone who can understand you better and make you happy la.
since i cant.
bye



bout naz,
hey thanks for being der for me girl.
appreciate it.
you're fun to be with.
seriously.
hmm.
want to say you mature,i don tink so.
want to say childish,not so.
haha.
lets just say you're ok ok la.
haha.
anyway your goodnite song.
i love naz,
you love naz,
everybody love naz,
ok seriously i forgot the other lines.
oops.
sorry.
haha.
ok.
FASTER COME HOME LA!
go dance dance.
eeyer!
haha.
bye




A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same

All the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me.


The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl,
there's only you and me.


Everything I know,
and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love

And when the last one falls,
when it's all said and done.
It gets hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me




shit me la.
i don freakin noe wads wrong wif me la.
im jus bein an ass here la.
but i cnt take it.
i HAV t tel u wads in my mind.
im kinda sick and tired about dis ah.
but even so,
i cant let you go.
i noe i cant.
its hard for me to do dat.
a ya.
dno la.
somehow ive got enough la.
i mean.
wen i don msg, you angry.
but u don msg, do i get angry?
YES, but iv NEVER said anth.
wen ur angry, ull scold me.
did i sae anything?
NO.
you noe why?
cos i would even allow you to beat me or watever,
just as long as you feel better.
you have two sides.
maybe i have too.
i may never noe.
but im jus sayin wads in my mind.
one side, im very important to you.
another side, im just another someone in your life.
i mean.
i fcukin dno y.
after noein dis,
i stil cant let go of you.
even after knowing,
you might even be liking someone else now.
HOW SHIT I CAN BE RITE?!
thinking of it,
DRIVES ME MAD OK!!!
i can be dam fucking angry!
but wen ur nice to me and all,
my anger automatically disappear.
i dno why.
i mean like.
you may say you like me now.
and without me ur nothing and blabla.
on dat point,
i can be VERY sure dat all dat is true.
but i cant put my hopes too high.
cos dat may not happen the next day.
cos you may not like me the next day.
and might like another perosn another day.
im tired..
maybe to you its nothing that im tired of all this.
cos i may be nothing.
but now i wont care.
cos im tired.
and had enough

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