JOYCELOWKUANHUI
my brother.
thanks for all the times that you were there man.
school's fun cause of you man brother.
the song in my blog made me want to tell those close to me
that you all mean alot to me.
and obviously you are one of them.
people say we are bestfrens.
no we're not.
we are brothers.
thats more than bestfren.
both of us dont know the meaning of bestfriends.
having them always fail.
cause its always a wrong choice.
seriously.
i mean.
your my telepathy ah.
haha.
like i sick.
you'll be sick.
ill be damn emo.
next it'll be you.
ill be freaking high.
and you'll be going crazy with me.
you injure your right knee.
i injure myleft.
you feel like shitting.
we'll be in the toilet at the same time.
ms shen always doubt.
i mean what can we do man?
we are really telepathy.
haha.
your the person i can talk to from A to Z.
we can fight and quarrel.
but the next second we'll still be brothers.
and nothing will change.
we quarrel cause both of us are stone minded.
and hate giving in.
haha.
i mean.
thanks for all these times man brother.
ill miss you alot man after we graduate.
chocomuncho.
rmember?
haha.


MY CLIQUE alex,louisa and jimin
thanks for be the one of those who always made my day.
i mean.
ya.
thanks alot man you guys.
ill miss these times when we graduate.
wonder if we'll keep in contact.


CASSANDRAJEANSSPYKERMAN
hey you there.
thanks for being there for me.
thanks for believing in me.
your one of the closest to me.
since sec one.
we may not really hang out always.
but you know me sid and you.
far at the outside.
close in the inside.
i just hope it will stay this way.
i'll miss you man cass.
dont forget me.


SITINURULBAKYAH
just like cass.
everything goes the same to you man sidd.
love you lots man.
thanks for always listening to me when i need someone.
thanks for trusting me.
thanks for always being there.
thanks for always smiling.
i just want to let you know that.
if ever that smile is just a facade,
i rather you come to me.
i'll listen to you.
and i'll lend you my shoulders to cry on.
i'll miss you man sidd.

REBECCAKALAIMAGAL
you.
you know what i went through.
from A to Z.
and i know what you went through too.
thanks for listening to me man.
thanks for caring bout me.
thanks for giving me advice on her.
thanks for giving me hugs when i really needed them.
thanks for letting me vent my anger on you when she pissed me off.
thanks for lending me your shoulder to cry on whenever she acts like an ass.
thanks man.
you know i would the same right.
you know you can count on me.
if both of us try,
i know for sure we can do it.
hack what they say la.
listen to what you want.
not what they want okaye.

SHALINI
you!
my clown!
you never fail to make us laugh in class.
you and your stupid jokes.
and actions.
thanks man girl.
bidin calls you the small people in willy wonka movie.
haha.
but ya.
you are like our elder sister in class man.
i dont knwo what else to say bout you la.
you are just you la.
and tahst what make us love you.
gonna miss you man shal.

NISHASUNIL
i know we are not really close and all.
but i will always remember you.
haha.
no teachers can ever separate us man.
haha
and you always pao to me okaye to the prefects.
idiot.
haha.
but i still love you.
haha.
and your my taf partner.
haha.
together we skip.
together we go.
haha.
and we only quarrelled TWICE in FOUR years.
woohoo!
haha.
im gonna miss you man buddy.

ESVARI
the best sitting partner man!
haha.
damn fun sitting with you.
miss you man.
haha.
and oh ya.
whenever im down.
i hug you.
without fail.
ill cry.
my gwd.
idiot you know you.
haha.
so malu.
haha.
im gonna miss you man.


SHARONGOH XUEPING
one of the closest to me also.
you always listen to me when i have problem.
you always advise me.
my dad loves you.
haha.
you are a very good role model.
thanks for guiding me man sharon.
and your my CHU ping.
haha.
your a good fren.
good leader.
and good AHMA.
haha.
will miss you and your naggings.
haha.
mostly miss your naggings.
shh!
haha


now my juniors.

JASMINELAUJIAYI
you listen to me TWENTY FOUR hour.
haha.
thanks man.
and you helped me alot.
you know my stories from start to the end.
you always do make an effort to cheer me up.
thanks man.
im gonna miss you man.
in band and school.
when i graduate.

CARISSACHIN
the junior who totally bullies her buddy!
haha.
but i still love her.
hey you.
dont forget me okaye.
i know your just gonna no.
haha.
bully me twenty four seven.
esp in band.
your bites.
your pinching.
wah.
so many blue blacks.
haha.
im gonna miss you man.
study hard okaye.
and dont be too love sick.
haha.

IMAN
stone stone stone!
ah lamak.
but im gonna miss you man!
you and your jokes.
haha.
just you stoning can make me laugh for the day.
haha.
sorry if i dont reply your msgs.
but you know ill be here if you need me right.
you can always come to me.
dont play play okaye.
study hard.
i know your trying.
i know you can make it yea?


CAICAIYAN
my talking partner.
haha.
im gonna miss you man!
study hard okaye.
cannot play only ya.
im gonna miss the times we talk on the phone.
and start crapping.
ahaha.
hope when i graduate we still keep in contact okaye.

BAHAREH
you helped me the most!
thanksman.
you gave me the most advice.
you were always there.
really appreciate what you did for me.
thanks man bahar.
thanks for just being there for me.

ALFEE
thanks for being there ya.
ya.
didnt regret that i know you.
throught a BET.
haha.
you were always there.
i just something from you.
be yourself.
seriously.
i dont like you being plastic.
i want you to be yourself.
you are a nice person to be with.
to talk to.
i like the you.
i dont like the not you.

HOTHOTBEEHOON
thanks for the memories.
it changed me.







alex

JOYCELOWKUANHUI

cassie and louisa


some of the important people who means alot to me.

okaye.
seriously.
all ive been doing is ART.
damn.
but art is actually like one of the 3 subjects that im concentrating on.
so ya.
what the hell.
would do anything for that As man.
i mean if art A2.
malay A2.
maths B3.
all total only like 7 points.
so got 3 points spare.
at least abit safe.

oh god.
please.
its all in your hands.
ill play my part by trying my best.
but please help me, god.
i have to pass.
amin.

anyways.
ya.
my mind is like everywhere.
you know.
like im stressed up la.
but dont know why.
will confirm think of her wan.
pissed off la.
its like that time i think of her i can actually use it to gain KNOWLEDGE.
shitified ass me.

COME ON FEE.
you can do it.
have faith in yourself.
and the As will be yours.


stay alittle while
to hear me say
that i want you here tonight
and i need you by my side
just one more moment
just one more moment
with you


kenangan manis yang kau beriku
tetap dalam isi hati
bagaimana pun pahit kenangan itu
aku tetap akan kenangi

WOOHOO!
my FIRST MALAY poem.
wah.
so proud of myself.
HAHA.
thank you thank you.
haha.


oh al.
hope you liked the sunflower.
: )




yay.
haha.
AT LAST.
talked to shahirah.
haha.

just broke fast.
yummeh.

im sorry.
your not the one.

im even afraid to take the chance.
why must take the chance if i know that i wont like you.
its just the same as hurting you rite?
i might as well stay friends.

friendship last forever.
not relationship.
yea?

love you girl.
dont take this feeling too seriously.
it will affect our friendship.
: )




dont take too long to say 'i love you'
to the ones you love
cause time has the habit of
slipping away

out of the clear blue sky
when lightning strikes on a sunny day
just take me in
and keep me from the rain

and the words tht seems so hard to say
will come out when you've gone away
stay a little while
to hear me say

that i want you here tonight
and i need you by my side
just one more moment
just one more moment
with you

turn away to say goodbye
to each and everyone that passes by
like a disc that never reads
cause time keeps slipping away
and time will turn to grey
and time will be the one that holds you down


and the words that seems so hard to say
will come out when you've gone away
stay a little while
to hear me say

that i want you here tonight
and i need you by my side
just one more moment
just one more moment

that i want you here tonight and i need you by my side
just one more moment
just one more moment
with you

sometimes time will treat you bad
before you even know whats wrong
in the end it hits you hard
please tell me you'll be strong

sometimes time will treat you bad
before you even know whats wrong
and in the end it hits you hard
please tell me you'll be strong


-my blog song (one more moment)
by ronin




you give me wings
when im falling
you lift me up
when im down
taking high
touching sky
you make me
FLY


just felt like saying this.
brother its fated man.
that we are brothers.
haha.
the person that i can talk from A to Z manz.
haha.
see you later brother. : )

happy birthday BIMBO jimin!
haha.
god bless.
(wah.i so holy.hee)




woo wee ahh
bla ble bloo
dots.
haha.
lame.
someone insisted i should update.
so yea.
i did.
hee.
bye.


A1s here i come!
i think.
haha




fuck man.
im emo?
im obsessed?
who cares.
i miss you.
you dont know.
actually you never will.
i wont allow.
let me be in my own world.
let me cry on my own.
without anyone knowing.
let me scream in my room.
without anyone noticing.
let me miss you.
without you realising.
ill look you from far.
you never know.
you never will.


i cant love you.
your not the one.
i dont miss you.
your not the one i want.
im sorry.
i cant force myself.
i tried.
but i cant.
i hope you understand.
you deserve better.



few months have passed
as fast as the wind blow
i still hve feelings for you
its hard to believe,
yes i know

cause whatever i do
i just never show
well thats the whole point
to make sure that you dont know

now im telling the truth to you
that i really miss our past
ill be haunted by our memories
that till now i wish it could last

but i know that everything has changed
that now you are not the same
now you have someone new
well i know that its not you whom i should blame

at least i know i tried
to make you happy at least when youre with me
now its time to let you go
and time to let you free

; wake me up from this nightmare





hello.
so..
yea.
recently.
been busy with my stupid injured head,back and leg.
today i went to school.
at last!
miss brother manz!
haha.
so catch up with whats been happening in school.
man.
how i missed it man.
anyway.
yea.
been happy too.
but cos of that person sometimes abit emo.
hee.
but actually not abit.
fine fine.
half half ah.
emo and happy.
i love maths!
i jus want to remind the world that maths rule!
muaha/

COME ON FEE!
ART AIM..... A2!
MALAY AIM...... A1!
MATHS AIM.... B3!

SO IN TOTAL WILL HAVE 6 POINTS.
COME ON MAN!
YOU CAN DO IT!




i miss this friend of mine.
we used to be close.
strangers-friends-good friends-best friends-more?
now?
i dont know.
strangers?
friends?
i dont know.
but yea.
i mean you should know who you are la.
but yea.
take care yea?
thats all ive got to say.
and study hard.




my eyes burn, from those tears
To think you'd learn over thses years
Good things won't last forever
So what the hell am i supposed to do?
You only wanted the things i couldn't give to you
But you had it all anyway

So take, take everything
And leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn't there
in the first place

-cass





i'm like a flower quickly fading
here today
gone tomorrow

-chloe






tears fall
blood shed
you found someone new
oh well, im glad

the time ive wasted
never really thought of it
the tears ive shed
maybe i got too deep

now i realised
that i was stupid enough
all i can do now
is to be ME,
which is to act tough.

hee

-feefi




wah.
i think my head injury is making me emo.
haha.
drots.
i miss brother!
i miss al!
i miss four eight!
i miss..
practically evryone la.
sigh.
i hate doctors.
i want to go to school!!!
bahh!
mummy!





OHMYGAWD
i saw something
and i really AM disgusted!
my gawd.
YUCKS!
puipuipui.
ahlama.
peng san.
haha.
anyway.
this week is a HAPPY and HYPER week for me.
thanks to my CLASS!
AND BROTHER!!!!!
HAHA.
freaking funnaeh.
haha.
you should me and her okayer.
high until cannot high alr.
haha.
then my class also.
take note.
I MISSED TINFANG AND AMARYLLIS.
then just out of random i shouter for them.
then i tell them.
haha.
then the class laugh.
haha.
HELLO.
cannot miss them isit.

oh ya.
dont know why i want to say this.
but....
ALFEE 'LOR' IS CRAZY AND RETARDED!
HAHAHA!
go home with her have RULES okaye.
wah sei.

1. cannot listen to ipod both ears.only ONE ear.
2.must know how to make her happy.HAHA.
3.must let her finish talking before you talk.
4.must listen to her nags!haha.
5.must listen to her whine.
6.DO NOT get her excited when the bus reach.
she will just end up have some baluku.
HAHA.
i think thats all.

okaye la.
talking to cai now.
bye bye.

brazilllllll
lalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalala
brazillll(x2)

HAHA.
we were singing that song.
haha.
then we were doing the steps to the song "back at one".
haha.
DAMN HIGH LA.
even now.
WEEEEEEEE.

to those who tagged my blog.
thanks for dropping by and advising me.
appreciate it.

i want to really tell my classmates that i really love them alot.
and seriously.
without all the highness and craziness i get there,
i really dont know what ill do.
you all really try to keep my mind off that person.
i love you guys alot.
study hard for Ns ya!
i know we can conquere it.
and do very well ya.
hack what others say.




i agree that its my fault.
but sometimes both of you dont see your own mistakes.
you said the way answer is rude.
obviously ill raise my voice if you shout at me even before
knowing whats going on rite.
all you know is both of you are right.
fine its my fault that i didnt pick up your calls.
but hello.
my school RULE is for us NOT to use phones in school.
if you see others use, then they are looking for trouble.
im not like them okaye.
which one you want your daughter to be like?
the one who breaks school rule.
or the one who obeys.
when you scream at my face,
i just feel like punching something really hard.
you shout at me even before asking me to explain.
you said your trying to be good role models.
yes i agree.
and i also know your trying to understand me.
and you can never be like other parents.
but i mean.
if only i could remind you that im a TEENager.
i also do have school problems,
friendship problems.
just like how you have problms at work.
and when you reach home you wouldnt want to be disturbed.
i do go through that too.
but you know what.
NO.
both of you think that i DONT go through all this.
and im just a very rebellious daughter.
if you just try to understand me a little more.
i promise you all this wouldnt have had happened.
and will never.


i use the phone to call my frens.
ya i know im suppose to be studying.
but how to study if both of you will never stop scolding.
just like how both of you hate to be scolded by your parents.
me too.
i call my frens cause i just dont have anyone to talk to at home.
i tried to tell you.
the moment i start my conversation.
"my frens and i quarrelled.."
i didnt get to finish.
what did you say?
or shall i say shout?
"why are you being so childish to do all this stuff?is this what you go to school for?"
then you will continue.
you tell me now.
if not my frens, then who can i talk to?
i dont know why.
but i really feel the need to say all these.
but both of you dont even want to see my face.
i cant do anything.
i said sorry you ignored.
i also just feel the need to blog cos i dont have my phone.
everything youtook away from me.
so the only thing left is my blog.

sometimes i just want to runaway.
runaway from all these.
soon im just gonna go crazy.
does anyone know all these?
no.


when you scream at me,
i feel like shouting my lungs out,
when i do good things,
instead of complementing instead you have doubts,
when i tried to open up,
all you did was to find my wrong doings,
you never tried to know the real me,
all you know is my bad side since the beginning,
i really want to runaway,
from all of you and stay alone,
you dont have to give me anything more,
just let me be on my own.


this is all i ask from both of you.




fark life.
dammit.
im tired.
but i just cant get over it.







okaye
i miss this fren of mine.
my gawd.
long time never talk to her.
so i called her then i was
JEAN come to my house.
have movie marathon.
then shes like im COMING.
hhahah.
then we watch watch watch.
actually THEY watch
i SLEEP.
as ul know rite
im a pig.
okaye.
then i had a freaking nice dream la.
how i wish itstrue.
haha.
okaye.
yesterday talked to bh and alfee.
bh cant make it la.
before 12 wanna die alr.
still sae wan talk whole day.
haha/
okaye.
tahts it.


this for days you caught my attention.




ive got you
you make me feel stronger.


anyway.
TEACHERS DAY.
no performance.
so they ask us to perform personally.
so we performed in class.
yupps.
then ya.
FOUR EIGHT SERIOUSLY WENT WILD!
EVERYBODY.
I MEAN IT.
WILD!
esp BELINDA.
ahlama.
straight away eye sore sia.
but she so cute.
and thursday is such a DRINKY day.
had very bad headache.
they said drink for fun.
i drink to get you out of this bloody mind.
then met up with jasmine.]
had section talk with sharon iman and jasmine.
damn funny la.
my gawd.
but wheres chin!
a yo.
ya.
love thursday.
went so high till could reach the sky.(hmm.not exactly.hee)
then yesterday.
ya.
went out with people till like about 1 plus?
2 plus?
yea.
then study study study.
now i just reach home from macs near my house.
jean is a very nice study buddy.
haha.
should study with her more.
oh ya.
over there got many girls studying SS for Ns la
then i was like peeping to their notes.
BUT.
couldnt see anythingf.
BUT.
i could hear their notes loud and CLEAR.
haha.
stupid la they all.
jean was like laughing la when i did that.
haha.
anyway.
gotta go and study again.
bye peeps.

hey jean.
thanks for accompanying me.
cheezios!
: )


i just want to tell my section that i miss you all so much!
the jokes.
i mean LAME jokes that we laugh at.
haha.
ghost stories.
bullying each other.
seducing sharon and chin.
haha.
sigh.
and i missmy buddy.
i was cleaning my room.
then read the letters i got when they were in sec ones.
gawd.
you all were super different.
super cute.
ANYWAYS.
bye


TO MY CLASSMATES
HEY YOU ALL
COME ON
WE CAN DO IT FOR OUR NS MAN.
HACK WHAT PEOPLE SAY.
BELIEVE IN OURSELVES AND THE As WILL COME TO US WITHOUT ANY TROUBLE
YA
THINK BOUT MS SHEN YEA.
PEACE.
BYE

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