ICE SKATING WAS OH SO FUN MAN!
in the beginning,
me and karen was like.
NO WAY we're going to skate.
cos we CANT.
den they went first.
at first i hesitate to go.
cos wanted to watch movie after dat.
but ended up i went.
at first me and karen was holding on to the railing la.
cant even walk der/
end up.
slowly slowly slowly
I SKATE!!!!
cai oso.
haha.
den they wnated to go sakae.
but i din wan.
so i went off.
took mrt.
met nadirah.
dne went out wif her for awhile.
den rush off.
met jean.
wemt out for awhile.
den here i am!
had fun today.
bye bye




ok.
shall reply to tags.

to nad: are you nadirah? anyway.hey :)

to anonymous:as i said fcuk off la ok.

to shahirah: ya man. ill call you SOON.haha.or you call me ah.lagi senang. :)

to taitai: hey

to karen: err.am i suppose to freak out and be scared? haha. anw.boo to you too. :)

to debbie: wah!still can tell me how to spell ___ ah. haha.
ipurposely wan. cos im tryin not to say it cos someone does not like it :)


ok thats all.

i dono wad you wan.
even you said you cant promise anyhting.
so wad am i suppose to do
wen ur close to me
im scared to do anything
it feels different
even tho i want you close to me.
i miss those times.
but im scared


going out to play soccer now.
bye
i hope you tink about it




I LOVE FOUR N EIGHT!
I LOVE MY CLASS!
hey guys.
you all just rock ya!
class was SO UNITED just now!
with the selling of food
till after that wen we sat around each other
and sang as a class.
ill NEVER forget today man!
HAD SO MUCH FUN!
AS A CLASS!
even tho we're not always like this,
and there ARE quarrels among us,
wen time to be united and bonded,
we will always stay close to eahc other.
thats wad i love about our class man.
seriously.
it s been a LONG time since i see our class THAT united man.
its NOT over guys.
FRIDAY coming up.
lets do our best to help Mercy Relief yea?
and help those who need our help there. :)


after everything.
played in class with half of de class.
played games.
had 'fore feat'.
JOYCE HAD TO CATWALK!!!!
HAHAHA!.
er.
i had to sway my ass left to right right to left.
ARSES la they all.
haha.
OH YA WAIT!
I PLAYED BALL WITH BRUDDER BEFORE THE WHOLE THING STARTED.
hee.
ok continue.
den me ad joyce went off first.
saw bidin cai and joanne.


den later part of the day
joanne cai and bidin went off to joanne house alr.
brudder and i were sitting with bahar jasmine and caroline
den i was FREAKING HUNGRY man.
den jasmine oso.
so walked joyce to bus stop then went to joanne house.
then cab to bugis paragon.
then went seoul garden.
YUMMY!
then eat until cannot eat already.
then its like any second can puke sia.
haha.
then walk walk around.
i went home wif jasmine and bidin.
took mrt back home.
someone said i was having black face just now.
and i very dao.
de reason is dat.
not dao or angry la.
just seriously dono wad to do and not to do.
when i stand close to you.
im scared to even look at you.
you said we were close wen there was nothing between us.
trust me.
it was totally different.
the way we act with each other.
only the way we talk to each other are the same.
a ya.
i dono la.
but ill try.
promise i wont let anything destroy our friendship.
SMILE SMILE :)

tomoro not going cross country.
might be meeting friend.
so ya.
BYE.
NIGHT.




first time i saw you outside the hall,
you already caught my attention,
just by staring with those pretty eyes,
it made me trip over the curtain.

haha.
lame.
but true.
haha.


sorrex.
my bestfren come first!
haha.
CARISSA ABIDIN.




firstly.
today was so frigging fun la.
haha.
my class like slack from 9 to 1 pm.
eh.
actually not for the art girls ah.
all of us went to art room at ard 11 to do batik.
yay!
at last got my batik man.
oh ya.
before recess,
me phanidah jimin brudder cassie alex and flora were talking about singapore idol.
phanidah and cassie were like imitating those people la.
laugh until cannot laugh sia.
haha.
love them man!
den after dat,
during recess,
we went to de canteen
(SHE was der.wanted to sae hi.but felt weird.so nvmd.it doesn matter t her anw)
to look for dis girl hu keeps on calling cheryl.
haha.
YUCKS man!
haha.
den saw dis HER la.
lets name her B.
its like.
everytime i see B,
we seem to look at each other.
ans she dam cute ok.
she was stoning looking at my direction.
den i click my hand in front of her.
den she SNAP frm stonin,
den she malu sei dat time.
haha.
dam cute la.
den jus now din noe B was der.
so looking ard den wen i saw her
we were lik looking but not looking ah.
i mean like peep at each other la.
i dono ah.
but ya.
she has these big eyes which seriously is nice man.
my frenz dam idiot.
they were like huever you like all big eyes sia.
haha.
but hey its not true ok.
its just all of them,
their eyes caught my attention before their looks.
yup.
anyway.
B made my day.
haha.
shes my frens fren.
NOT YET my fren.
muahaha.
haha.
my frenz was like so,now you don like THE HER alr?
i was like.
i dono.




every message that i get,
i hope that it'll be yours.
but it turns out to be hers.
how i wish
you has missed me
even for a lil.
but you din.
i din message you.
it din make a diff.
well now it has proven.
i don mean alot.
maybe you said my friendship mean the world to you.
ya.
my FRIENDSHIP.
but not me.
well.
no point bragging la.
seriously no point.
i might say i give up on you.
actions speak louder than words
it might not be easy.
but ill definitely try.
try to be your bestfriend again.
try to be your friend again.
try to trust you again.
its tough.
but ill try
befor i can try all that.
i HAVE to get over you.
i have to stop being the one who misses you.
stop being the one sided fool who begs for you.
wats the point.
its like being one freaking loser.

maybe going on with someone else will change it all.
maybe.
maybe not.
but my friends ask to give it a try.
do you know even after what you've done to me.
i really don wish to look at other people.
and go for them?
argh!
just forget about it la fee.
if she don care,
why must you be the one?


/goodbye
till then;




i tink i cool down already.
not really but maybe a bit.
i understand your situation.
i respect your decision.
i cant promise everything will be the same.
but ill try.
but im sorry.
i love you too much to let you go.
maybe i slowly will.
but i know my feelings for you wont fade.
im sorry.
its easy for you to say cos your feelings for me will fade.
its different for me.
you'll do fine without me.
you have your friends.
so it doesnt matter if we continue being friends.
but ya.



/let the past be the past;
it will never return.




you said you mean it.
you said you were true.
ALL PIECE OF CRAP!
ALL PIECE OF SHIT!
you did it once.
now you did it again.
never gotten dis weak for someone before.
never loved anyone more.
THAT IS WHY WE'RE STILL FRIENDS!!
i mean.
HELLO!
I WAS NEVER SERIOUS WIF SOMEONE!
NEVER!
dis is de first time.
i don bloody hell noe
wad shit i see from you.
dat made me love you like mad!
all i see now.
is just aSELFISH GIRL hu
tinks ONLY for herself!!
not being petty or watever fcuking shit la ok!
argh!
jus forget it.
its over




yo.
got all results alr.
like shid la.
some subjects i improve la.
maths flop cos paper difficult sei.
but pass ah..
JUST pass ON the DOT.
failed 2.
combine humans and science.
blea.
gotta buck up man.
seriously.
during holidays,
have to come back to school for ONE WEEK!
shitified.
but ill make sure.
that i go out.
den the next wekk cannot go out alr.
gotta start focusing on studies AGAIN.
no choice man.
no pain, no gain.
when you have no gain,
you will just have SHAME.
ok.
talking nonsense.
anw.
skin peeling.
face roasted.
but don cre.
so going again man!
haha.
ok.
gotta go.
bye

din see you for NINE days.
don tink you even realise.
don tink you care.
but you wanna noe the truth.
i miss you alot.




hello hello.
went out wif jasmine today
went to bp
den walk walk walk.
brought for her shirt so she can change.
BUT it din look so nice cos her shorts are really too short!
den shes like can we buy another shorts?
which place is de cheapest...
den i tink tink tink.
i was like "NTUC.."
haha.
den we went ah.
den bought already.
den went to bowl.
so shit la pls.
i bowl tinking dat it was my turn.
but actually it was jasmine's turn la pls.
so shit.
she got few points extra.
haha!
BUT i won her overall.
at first her points always higher than mine.
but at last i won.
thanks to de DETERMINATION i had.
hahah.
den shye came over my place.
watched a jim carrey's movie.
yea.
den she went home.
tmro going sentosa.
yea.
ok ok.
gotta go.
bye bye.

do you all tink feelings will fade sooner or later?
i dono.
i noe mine wont.
so too bad man.
but i dono bout hers.
blea.
ok bye




YOUKNOW WHAT I DON CARE ALREADY LA OK.
IM SICK AND TIRED OF THE FIGHTS LA!




YOU KNOW WAT!
MID YEARS OVER!
WEE!
NOW SLACKING.
TIRED SEI.
AFTER FEW DAYS OF LESS THAN 3 HOURS OF SLEEP.
JUST NOW AFTER ART PAPER
WENT TOWN WIF BRUDDER AND BECKY.
MET UP WITH CHERYL AND SANDRA.

BIDIN,BAHAR,JASMINE AND GRACE CAME ALONG.
HER GROUP AND MY GROUP GOT TO NOE EACH OTHER.
WITHIN AN HOUR,
THEY WERE LAUGHING AND "CGA" AND HUNTING TOGETHER.
HAHAA.
IF YOU WONDER WATDS DAT.
NVMD.
DEN WENT HOME WITH BIDIN.
TOOK BUS TO QUEENSTOWN.
DEN I TOOK ANOTHER BUS HOME.
NOW HERE I AM.
WHILE SHARON'S MUGGING..
IM HERE SLACKING.
MUAHAHA.
OK OK.
DIS IS ENOUGH FOR TODAY.

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