ok.yesterday slept over at my aunt place.after so long never really talk to my cousin sister.yesterday was definitely a VERY FUN time.me,my cousin sis n cousin bro.we were so mad yesterday.even together wif my aunt.hahha.yea.den we watch tv.my cousin sis thot dat we thot
wanted to stay up de WHOLE dae.but FAILED.both of us were too tired.so went to sleep.ok.den woke up around 9?yea.den went to play soccer wif my brudder.den playpl;ayplay.den suddenly ame called me up.she ask me go skewl for rehearsal.den i was like IM NOT ACTING.den she sae.yes you are.as a pinochio instead of fairy godmother.den i was lik WOW IM SAVED!hahha.den i was lik ok la,den went.reach ard 1 plus.practice practice until lik mad.me,sonia and camille was being crazy la.had ALOT OF FUN.even tho everyone was practically pespiring.hahah.den cheryl came to join us.den practice la.ya.ended ard 5 plus.so went home.den slck at grandma house.den here i am.hee.yup.dats all for today.byebye.gotta go and study.exams are coming.sugh.AGAIN!.




arrggHso pissed!hey you noe wat!YOU!de one hu tinks dat my blog is bout YOU!pls ah!ive NO TIME to write bout YOU la cos i dun even like you!not more than a fren!so pls!stop telling ppl dat i like you and i write bout you!pls!b4 you kena jack by me!i dun wanna confront you.but i jus have to.de problem is getting outta hand.i have to confront you.and my "goodfren" hum i BLINDLY trusted!WAT DE f U WAN FORM ME!wat de!i tel you stuff!you tell ppl la!im not so patty la ok!but dis is lik!i mean!IT HAS NEVER COME ACROSS MY MIND DAT U WOULD BACKSTAB ME YOU NOE!i trusted you!and wat is dis!wat shit is dis!mtf.aarrrggh!im jus so piss now la ok!its lik!i mean someone closew to you hum u actually have NO IDEA dat would even wanna backstab you!now is backstabin you at de same time HELPIN YOU!wat de f!and pls ah!I DUN LIKE YOU!pls dun jack urself here la!you come my blog tinkin dat i write bout YOU!pls la!its not bout YOU la!its bout my crush!and a definite answer is dat YOU'RE NOT MY CRUSH!!SO Y WRITE BOUT YOU RITE!arrgggh!wtf!!!hack it la!im jus gonna confront both of you!fish of la both of you!




now im at home doing NOTHING.
cos i cant STUDY!now.
maybe later.
cos im too troubled now.
but truz me ill be fine in a while.
afetr i think it over and stuff.
ya.
shish.i miss pe todae.
YAY!
I CAN GO SKEWL TOMORO!
wee~cant wait!
cant believe im missing skewl so much!
being in skewl jus makes me NOT tink bout my troubles.
cos of my FRENZ!love you all.my clas.
we may quarrel.we may joke.
even if we quarrel.it wont trouble me cos its NORMAL in my cls.
none of the classes in de skewl is lik my clas.
be it we quarrel or makin jokes,
it wil always make my day![bad or good..hee=)]
i miss my clas=).sigh.and i miss YOU!=(




well.i guess its all over.
wen it haven even started.
first you were so close to me.
now you're leaving me jus lik dat?
wen i really need you.
here beside me?
why are you doing this to me?
am i too patty?
im sorry if i am but i cant help it!
where are all de promises you have given to me?
all the "ensureness",
saying dat ull be here wenever ineed you,
why?
why did you lie to me?
why?
thot dat i wont care bout other ppl anymore wen they hurt me,
cos i noe you wil be der for me.
but i guess im wrong.
cos i guess you are one of them.
you all jus wanna hurt my feelings dont you!
i wan you outa my life!pls!
STOP LYING TO ME!
im hurt ENOUGH!




i miss de OLD you.
pls come back.
or was dat not de REAL you.
so maybe ive jus fallen in love wif de FAKE you.
i noe i dun make sense.
well.
try feeling how im feeling now.
and ull noe how hurt i am.
im in a lost.
always prayin u would come back to me.
but i dun tink so.




shitified!
sigh.im so bored.
summore missing SOMEONE!
can die sia at home!another dae to go!
my god!im reali gonna die outa BOREDOM!
k.jus wanna tel YOU dat i miss YOU.
sigh.




god!i feel so guilty now!sorry mummy and daddy!because of me you all cant go work cos you all oso kena sore eyesZ!im SO SORRY!den its like now im stuck at home.now having fever oso!sigh!i wanna go skewl!ahhhh!todae is a very important dae can!wednesday oso!got PE!arrggh!!my both eyes now are dam red!now im worried for my brudder.my real brudder.hes havin exams den later cos of ME he cant go.haiyop!i dam worried la!ahhhH!i feel so guilty!cos of ME now my parents are sick!sighhhh!feel so bad!later they going doctor.hopefully nuthign wrong.i tink im gna ask my parents to aks my brudder sleep my aunts house.cos if he stay at home later he oso kena den cant do EXAMS!haiyo..




okok.hmm.todae go skewl per normal wif my SORE EYES!den reach earlier den brudder la.den its lik i step into cloas oni everybody was lik STAY AWAY FROM ME!wah!so hurting sia!sigh!yala.den its lik assembly me and brudder sat at de back.den ms shen saw my eyes and brudder eyes den aks we all wat happen to our eyes.den i sae sleep late!hahhha!brudder sae she hit de wall!hahahahah!oh..den went for chemistry clas.den dat SANDRA AH!todae we dam pissed wif her!i mean everyone was scared of us!but they never CHASE us out can!she ah!shout until de whole skewl can ear i tel you.den cos of her we cant stay in skewl lor.den had to look for ms shen.had to go up and down sia.end up we found her in de theatrette.ya.den me,brudder and sara went off la.even de clerk scared of us sia!haiyo!den we took 174 and head for bukit batok polyclinic!de VERY FIRST TIME i go clinic myslef.hahha.dam funny la de experience!hahah!we had to wait for lik 2 hours!den we went to eat first lor.i noe de place mah cos near my prinary skewl.so fun!haha!brudder got so confused on wat shes gonna eat!hahah!end up eat PRATA!hahha!me and sara ate chicken cutlet!yumyum!den after we went to buy bubble tea!hahah!we from sore eyes ah.i tink can go to fever sia.eat so many stuff.hahah!den we went to polyclinic back.dis part dam funi la!brudder wanted go toilet.den de thing close.skali coincidentally we saw it was her no. on de thing.haha!den she quickly run into de room.hahah!oni 2 mins den she cam wif her VEYR BIG BIG MC!hahha!2 days.den 15 mins later it was sara's turn.2mins later came out wif half a day mc!haha!so she rush to skewl again.haha.den mine!45 MINUTES LATER!dat 45 minutes ah!dam funi la!me and bruydder.ders dis nurse hu doesnt ACT LIK A NURSE.dam funi.brudder sae she form IMH wanna be nurse dats why she came.HAHAHHA!den dis old man!so IMPATIENT CAN!keep on going inside askin de doc whether its his turn.KAISU!den after was ME!hahah!den after dat.i came out WIF BIGBIGBIGBIGGEST MC!ever in my life.haha.having 3 DAYS OF MC!AHHHH!I DUN WAN!i wanna go skewl!!!sigh.den nvmd.den me brudder go eat AGAIN!.den we went home.brudder has 43 stops to reach her house.mine is oni 19 stops.hahhaa.now.IM HOME!ill be staying at home till wednesday!diedie!im so gonna play XBOX man!and borrow alot of cds!hahah!byebye!i tired la.wanna sleep.byebye!









wats appenin to me.im sori if i offended u.
really sorry.
im not me.
im sorry.
punched de wall again.sigh.
since promise not to cut wrist,
den punch de wall den.
sigh.
i guess my hope is gone.
sigh.
depress in de mean time.
wanna be alone.
i need YOU!
but ur not here.
wenever i prayed for you to be here,
den ill close my eyes.
wishin dat ull be here wen i open my eyes.
but.
no.
you din come.
you were not der.




fifi!!!dun be angry wit urself ok?!!dun hit da wall...later u cannot play tuba....
AN JING RAWKS!!!hahaz...soo nice...anw, i got the jay chou's version already...full one...the album one...hahaz...

ppl must be wondering how come i'm posting...well, i've got fifi's password and she allowed me to post...=)
and i cannot give out the password no matter wad..i promised her last tym...hahaz...=)

BAND RAWKS!!!EUPHONIUM RAWKS!!!TUBA RAWKS!!!BRASS INSTRUMENTS RAWKS!!!
i'm so insane...lolz...

to fifi: ty for letting me post crapp here!!!=)))
stay happy ok???

-gladys-




ok!i dun bloody care if im not suppose to use vulgarities in dis blog!i dun bloody care!im so fucking pissed today!i mean i try to forget wat actually happened!but ts jus in my mind!oh ya! and pls ah!its not bout de bloody msg thingy k!dats lik so long time ago!oltho im pissed wif dat but i forgot bout it already.i noe it was not me.so why worry.im pissed wif other stuff!ahhhhh!bloody fucked up life!i mean.i realli dono wat im even tinking bout!we are good frenz.we are de best best best frenz ever.but ur rank is not as high as my lil star.shes always no.1!ok.back to YOU!i dono wat to do!shal it remain as frens or wat.i dun wanna lose as my greatest fren.but at de same time feelings DO grow.im praying dat it wont grow more stronger!but it DID!and im so dead!it feels weird being around you.cos.cos.fuck it!i dono wat to sae!shit it!agh!i cant look rite thru ur eyes.cos im scared.im scared ill jus look at it and you'll get scared.ur eyes jus melts my heart.im not saying dis jus for de sake of saying.but its de FACTS!to ppl you may not be de most good lookin one!but to me!ur ARE THE ONE!so fuck to all de ppl hu dun agree!




i feel so sick now.haiz.having high fever.thot dat i can stand it until de end of skewl.but din.couldnt take it.so went home early.den bath.after dat slept.nearly fainted while on de way home.hiaz.so sick.kept on coughing.din go for band.dun tink im going for band either for tomoro.haiz.cos cam take it.now i online cos im bored.alone at home.but after dis im gonna rest.cos cant take it.my heads spinning lik hel!haiz.people are all pespiring here and im shivering.im wearing a veyr thick jacket.haiyo.dos hu dono im sick might tink im crazy.aniwae ya.sigh.jus now i was sick rite.den in clas.din had de strength to even open my mouth and talk.den everybody find me weird cos im not my usual self.yea.dats how they noe im sick.oh ya.din realli study today in skewl.cos ms kang never come.den malay its like we were talking bout some competition stuff.yea.now im playing wif my tamade.hahahah.dats wat men joyce call our tamagutchi.muahahah.mine is lik everyday wil die.truz me.it will NEVER grow ca.hahaha.but ill try.hahhha.k.now i wanna rest.at d esame time im lik depress and sad la.haiz.so sad.i realli hope you would give me achnace to tel you how i realli feel.pls dun be mean.cos it hurts alot.pls.i beg you.im hurt enough.pls dun do dis to me.i lovbe you.i wil do anything for you.truz me.ill give you all de happinness dat you've awaited for.or hope for.pls give me a chnace.de more i tel myself dat i hate you,de more dat i relaised dat i like you.ill wait.no matter how long it takes.




pls dun hurt me anymore.watever you said is jus lik a knife pointing rite thru my heart.and it bleeds.pls.pls stop hurting me.every word dat you sae.always hurts me badly.i need you here.cant you see it.pls.pls dun leave me alone here.i need you.ill wait.no matter how long it takes.i dun care wat ppl sae anymore.wat matters is my feelings for you is real.and strong.i jus wish dat you would jus giv me a chance to sae wat i ave to sae and how im feeling.pls.will you give me a chance?even if it is IMPOSSIBLE of rus to be together ort for you to like me even a tiny bit.jus let me sae out my feelings.pls.pls do listen.




me and my buddy,carissa chin!
me n brudder wif our tamagutchi
me and "taitai"
teachers dancing
us four!




sat
okay,
for friday we had band.den my section was SUPERDUPER hyper k!hah!it was so bloody fun!all of us were hyper startin wen we played "lord of the dance".den esp me and ame started to be crazy!den we kept on laughing the whole time non-stop.den its like cos we're suppose to dance to de music rite.so we made up STUPID steps la!den de CORNET saw.den they laugh lor!hmmph!esp kayminn and rachel!haha!kayminn damn funny la.cos she look at us,den i look at her and ask her look front,den she quickly turn.me and ame str8 away laugh lik hel k.oh ya.den der was dis part la.dam funi.cos syamirah looked at ame lik a ghost lik dat.her smile dam scary la.dsen her eyes big summore.den ame was lik.AHHH!SCARED SCARED!den she move near me.den i move near sharon.den its lik der was a BIG GAP between us and syamirah.haha.den wekept on laughing la.cos its lik wen me,sharon n ame tlakin.den syamira smile at us lik "pon" you noe.den de more we got scared.den its like we went further from her.HAHAHAH!den shes lik.oi!come back im a loner.hahha.den she hold ame's shoulder and ame screamed k.hahhha.den we pity her liao.so we jus sit a LIL bit near her.haha.den i got her disease.den they started to be scared of me.but for awhile oni la.den band finish.

den after band,rush home to chnage cos meetin juniors to go out.den met them liao.around 2 plus near to 3 la.went plaza sin.den met carissa,vege,elmo.i tel you ah!they spent hours in de same shop k!i was so bored can!den they went on shopping.oh ya!den we met WILLY WONKA!i saw first.den I WAS LIK ah!willywillywillywilly.willywonka!HAHAH!den they were all laughing.den me n elmo take picture wif him.haiyo!he so tal!embarrasin sia!den after dat we continue to shop.den afetr went to concert.but i din go end up.cos had to go for dinner.yea.de dinner was fun.hahhahha!yea.ok.i tink dats all.now i toking to hyona.she dam funny la!crazy man!make me insane now la!haiyo!hahahahha!byebye!




sat
okay,
for friday we had band.den my section was SUPERDUPER hyper k!hah!it was so bloody fun!all of us were hyper startin wen we played "lord of the dance".den esp me and ame started to be crazy!den we kept on laughing the whole time non-stop.den its like cos we're suppose to dance to de music rite.so we made up STUPID steps la!den de CORNET saw.den they laugh lor!hmmph!esp kayminn and rachel!haha!kayminn damn funny la.cos she look at us,den i look at her and ask her look front,den she quickly turn.me and ame str8 away laugh lik hel k.oh ya.den der was dis part la.dam funi.cos syamirah looked at ame lik a ghost lik dat.her smile dam scary la.dsen her eyes big summore.den ame was lik.AHHH!SCARED SCARED!den she move near me.den i move near sharon.den its lik der was a BIG GAP between us and syamirah.haha.den wekept on laughing la.cos its lik wen me,sharon n ame tlakin.den syamira smile at us lik "pon" you noe.den de more we got scared.den its like we went further from her.HAHAHAH!den shes lik.oi!come back im a loner.hahha.den she hold ame's shoulder and ame screamed k.hahhha.den we pity her liao.so we jus sit a LIL bit near her.haha.den i got her disease.den they started to be scared of me.but for awhile oni la.den band finish.

den after band,rush home to chnage cos meetin juniors to go out.den met them liao.around 2 plus near to 3 la.went plaza sin.den met carissa,vege,elmo.i tel you ah!they spent hours in de same shop k!i was so bored can!den they went on shopping.oh ya!den we met WILLY WONKA!i saw first.den I WAS LIK ah!willywillywillywilly.willywonka!HAHAH!den they were all laughing.den me n elmo take picture wif him.haiyo!he so tal!embarrasin sia!den after dat we continue to shop.den afetr went to concert.but i din go end up.cos had to go for dinner.yea.de dinner was fun.hahhahha!yea.ok.i tink dats all.now i toking to hyona.she dam funny la!crazy man!make me insane now la!haiyo!hahahahha!byebye!




sad.
depress.
cryin.
hurt.
miss.
all dis feelings all mixed up to become one!
its a horrible feeling!
ahhh!
i hate de feeling!
ill look at you from far.
look at you walk.
look at you talk.
look at you smile.
nothing can be noticed.
how i wish.
one day.
it wil jus be you and me.
and allow me to sae wat ive been longin to tel you.
but i have to face de facts and truth dat ull never be mine.
which hurts.
its lik an arrow stabs thru ur heart.
but no matter how long it takes.
ill wait for dat special time.
dats wat i promise.
ill do anything.
cos i love you.




hie.
im happy plus depress at de same time.
im confused.
sigh.
wen i see you smile,it cheers me up.
wen you ignore me,it hurts so much!
why?
thot i would never fall for YOU,
but i guess im wrong huh.
not oni fallen for YOU.
but CRAZY for YOU!
god dammit!
ok.exams are in 2 months time!
i have to study!
yes!
jia you!
so bubbye!
update next time!busy!
gotta study hard!
dun wanna retain!
byebye!




thanks to my lil angel.
dat i feel loved and cared.
thnkas so much.
thanks for being there.
but will dis end?
or wil it stay lik dis?
i dono.
but i wish.
i pray.
dat it will always stay dis way.
i hope you feel dis way too.
jus wanna tel you dat ill be here wenever you need me ya.
tink twice b4 you tink no one cares for you.
cos de person here cares and loves you so ya!

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