us three in malay class.
me and lamppost!love her!
me n kitena!miss her!
group pic b4 kitena n kallie went off!
me n kallie!miss her too!




k.jus now was lik dam fun,tired n saddenin day for me!
k
first is dat jus now was cluster arts festival.
den went out of clas at 11.
den went to decorate booth.
den i had BASKIN!
AHHH!!!DAM SCARY!
at last ah!dat rach n amanda dfun wanna sing!den i had to sding wif my SORE THROAT can!
ahh!but it was fuin!den had to run up to band room for practice.
haiz.tired.
oh ya.and i wanna thanks my class for their support jus now!
it helps ya!love you all!
den de sec1 juniors!i love you all too!
and ame!thanks!
wihtout you all i tink jus now ill breakdown!
and den go home ah!
my moodswing start already!
haiz.den dam sad la!so depress!
k.dun feel lik bloggin already.
im jus too shit!ah!
feel lik screaming my lungs out!
i miss you.
i love you.
i need you.




ahh!k.tmro is cluster arts.
haiz.dis week busy man!
everyday go home late!
haiz.
den jus now had sectionals.it was fun!
as usual!
yea.my buddy din come.worried for her.wonder wats wrong.
anw.yea.
den played guitar.not exactly play.
we were workin on it.
den yea.it was ok.
dam scared.but nvmd.i CAN DO IT!
oh ya.and they wanna play my song.so ya.
de one dedicated to ahem.
ya.
so.ya.
gotta go n update for brudder.haha!bie!




wen you look,
ill look away,
cos im realli afraid,
you might sae things i never wan you to


dat was de phrase which has been on my mind.
i seriously dono how feel towards me.
but im sure you dun feel de way i feel bout you.
cos im not up to ur expectations.
im way too low for you.
im sorry.
but this is me.
and i hope you will accept for hu i am.
i realli hope you wil understand.
no,
but im sure you wont.
cos you dun even noe how i feel.
sigh.
i realli hope ur here wif me.
and hear wat ive gotta sae.
i would really find all the time i have for you.
but i need you to do de same thing too.
and just to sae dat u give me de chance,
pls.
i care for you.
i realli do.
i jus need you to allow me to show it to you.




pls baby pls.
pls understand.
pls dun leave me here alone.
pls dun go away.
pls dun ignore.
i need you here.
need your love.
wanna hear your voice again.
wanna hear you say dat you love me.
ders nothing dat ill never do for YOU!
i would cry for YOU!
i would die for YOU!
i would do anything.
my world is nuthign without YOU!
i just dono wat to do wif myself.
do you noe how much it hurts!
baby im missing you!
god dammit i love you!
pls understand.
i just need you to hear wat ive gotta sae.
i jus cant go on.
need you here.
i jus wanna sae dat i miss you so.
and i love you.




haiz.dam sian.
dam sad.
dam depress.
all de shit n stuff.
haiz.
sigh
miss you.




ok.
first of all.
im very very very sick now!
no one's at home except for me myself n i!
jus took a nap jus now cos was very very sick!39.4 degrees>
yea.
anyway.
yea.now i have to suffer for another day without YOU.
haiz.sigh.
i dun even now how im feeling deep down inside.
sigh.
i need you!
pls understand.
pls dun ignore.
is it wrong to like someone?
or shal i sae isit wrong to like YOU!
even if you wont lik me back,
i jus need you to hear me,
wat i have to say,
wat i ahve to tell you,
pls dun ignore cos it HURTS!
everyone cares for me,
but why cant YOU be one of them?
WHY?!?
cant you jus ask me how im feeling.
or at least pretend u cared.
god help me!
it jus seems dat i cant move on!
it may sound easy.
but its TORTURING ME!
but its ok.
if dat is wat you wan n which makes you happy.
i'll always love YOU lik i always DO!
I MISS YOU SO.




k.today had racial harmony day celebration!yea.wore boy one.hiaz.din care wat ppl wil sae la!oh ya!den brudder.ya.both our dat one oso ah wore de same colour as us la!dam happy la!hgahhahagahahh!k.watveer shit la!ya.den after dat.got band.was so tiring.at first was dam fun la!my section!as usual la.hee.den afetr i dam HYPER!haha.as usual too.ya.den after de long long dae.still got de reahersal la!haiyo! so tiring can!move here and der!haizhiaz.aniwae.ya.haiz.im jus feelin.as in realli sick la.sumhow got fever.den confirm i losin my voice!bahhh!talkin is my lIFE!ahhhh!!haiz.lookin at YOU jus breaks my heart!cos i noe for de facts dat ull NEVER be mine!haiz.i miss you so much!i jus cant go on!im jus outa my mind!i realli dono wat to do!you'll look another direction,ill look another direction!wats dis!ah!all dis shit!first is zebra!now you too???all of you jus wanna hurt me rite!make me love you den jus let me SUFFER!in PAIN!i need sumone to guide me de way.i need sum1 to show me love.i eed sum1.to ensure me dat everything's alrite.how i wish YOU may be de ONE!baby im missing YOU!why do YOU take my heart away!why did YOU exist!why!why all dis SHIT!ahhhh!

but my heart stil goes to zebra most!im sorry but its NOT easy to forget bout YOU!i dun bloody care watever all frekain ppl wil sae k!i dun bloody care!cos you noe why!you took my breathe away.you snatch my heart away.wen i see you,my hear5t betas faster!but WHY!why do i satil lik you wen i noe for real dat u hate me so much!to forget bout you, i tried alot of stuf.thot if i jus look at another person it'll chnage ME!but it DIN!thot by me likin 16 it'll change my feelings!but now worst!i tink im falling for 16!i cant take it!why all dis!thanks to YOU!if i din had loved you,dis wouldnt happen!!!ahhh!

carved your name on my heart.
write ur name on my hand wif blade.
wad more can i do to make you realise dat i love you more than anyone can do!
ill even risk my life for YOU!
i love you.




haizhaiz.
today is firstly a very HYPER day!
for me n joyce.
but den,
as time pass by,
i became more sad and sadder.haiz.
cos i miss you so!
aniowae!
i cut my hair!
darn short la!
den dam ugly!!!
hate it so much!!!
haiz.forget it.
anw.
i miss you!
din c you for a very long time!
miss you!!
how i wish you could be mine.
how i wihs i could tell you how im feelin deep inside.
haiz.
but i noe it all wont come true.
but ill be wiatin for you!




valau!!!jus now was lik PURE FUN LA!!!WOOHOO!!went to theme park jus now!!!woooooooo!!!so fun fun fun fun fun!!!!all of us were lik...we're so gonna blog today la!hahahahahh!kk.ya.first in de list was dat me and meimei were late AGAIN!!HAHAHAH!sori u guys!ya!and de bloody fair is lik 16.50 la!waste my money on dat sia!BUT ITS ALL WORTH IT!hahaha!k.ya.den de first in de list was de FLIPPER!start de dae wif FEAR!!!!cos im scared of height mah!den after they ask me to take de FLIPPER!den i went!so scary!but nvmd.it was fuin!hahaha!kk.den the rest dono go where la.so me,gorilla,charite and caiyan!woohoo!we went to wild & wet can!so funnnnN!!!woohhhooo!charite went wif caiyan..eh was it caiyan?hmm,..i forgot hu la.but ya.charite went to sit wif sum1 la.den me wif gorilla!!valau!i was not suppose to be as wet as her l;a!but cos of dat gurl ah!i was dam wet la!~vakau!ya!den ah!cos she sat at de back mah!den i sat IN FRONT!de bad thing to do man!den she from de back rite she go and splash water on me la!den i was SO SO SO SO WET!!!heng i bring extra clothes se!den after dat.we went some other rides la.all de SCARY ones!den oh ya!we went for de viking[pirate ship] like million of times la!hahahah!den most of de time i sit wif either gorilla,charite or gorilla n cherrie la!den we compete hu shout LOUDEST!well.dat stupid gorilla n cherrie were laughin at me cos i cant lik SCREAM!i can oni SHOUT!man! wats de bloody diff!hmmpphh!!oh ya.den cherrie ah!she siao man! you wouldnt wanna noe wat she did went she went for de ride!god its so disgustin!!!AHH!den all of us are lik scared to go for de next ride!at de wild n wet!haiyo!OH YA!de second thing which is lik super dam funny la!most of them wanna go to haunted house la!den they went!hHAHhHAHAHAH!den me,charite n meimei waited outside la!denw e thought lik they will "COMPLETE" de whole journey in de haunted house la!end up!wen de guy check on dem lik thrice they were hiding behind de bloody door la!den de 4th time they faster ran out!hahahah!dam funny la!oh ya!den ella is always wif liyi la.they both ah.no fear u noe!OH YA!DEN DE ALPHA 8!!!AHH!BLOODY HEL MAn!!so SCARY!dat ella n liyi NEVER scream AT ALL!gosh!!i was lik screamin my lungs out!den oh ya!we went to de thing which lik can flip 360 degrees!woohoo!so fun!!hahh!oltho i was afraid la!oh ya!den wen we cut de cake rite!HAHAH!dat madam GORILLA started de cake fight!hahah!den she put at my face can!den i waited for her to come back den i put de big piece on her face!hahahha!den we started playin catching!hahahah!ahhh!ill never forget to dae!it was total fun man!HAHAHAH!oh ya!and an unforgettable day!AHH!SOMEONE KISSED ME ON MY CHEEKS!EWWW!AHHHH!!de i was avoidin her la!hahahah!CHERRIE u ah!oh ya.haiz.if i wanna type summore ah,dun tink it will ever end la!but IT WAS FUNz!!!AHHH!!miss it!all of us are MOST PROBABLY lose our voice!hHAHAH!gotta go!biebei!anw.im at daddy's skewl.got talent time!it rocks!




i miss YOU lik hell!
im going crazy!!
gosh!
im jus going insane!
haiz.
why mus YOU do this?
leavin me here ALONE!
suffer ALONE!
cry all night!
jus for YOU!
i misss YOU!
miss YOUR smile!
miss YOUR eyes!
miss EVERYTHING bout YOU!
HAIZ.
cant wait to see YOU!
man!
i jus cant do anything without YOU!
if makin me sad is wat YOU want and makes YOU happy,
i dun mind..
jus as long as YOU ARE HAPPY.
cos i love YOU!




haizhaizhaiz!!mismismismismismis!!!ahhhh!!!mis u mis u mis u mis u!!!how how how how !!!i pretend to ignore..but deep down inside i LOVE YOU!!!!AGGGHHH!!!haiz..de sight of YOU jus cheers up n brightens up my dae!!!wen YOU smile!!!gosh!! ahhhhh!!! i feel lik screamin my heads off!!!i cant figure wat n how im feelin now!i cant describe it!!you ah!!!pls la!!!wan to look! look!dun wanna look dun look!!!AHHH!i dono to be angry or wat u noe!wen i angry,i see you,i cool down automatic!!!you always see me den pretend never see me..err..lik i care la!ill ALWAYS IGNORE lor!den ull be de one look!!!ahhhh!!!wat is dis!!!!haiz..donola..im jus sad la..how i wish i can have you by my side..









im tired,
you made me feel dis way,
i told you everything,
opened up and let you in,
for once in my life,
now all dat's left of me,
is wat i pretend to be,
yet so broken up inside,
i cant breathe,
i cant sleep,
im barely haingin on.....




now im alone in de dark again,
left alone by myself,
how i wish i can say it to you,
jus whisper thru ur ears,
jus to say wat ive been longin to sae,
im sori,
i tried to stop dis feeling long time ago,
but i guess i was not dat strong as i thot i was,
to me,
ur my world and fantasies,
i jus wana let u noe dat,
ur like a wrold to me and ,
nothing matters except YOU!

jus lik dat u took over de person'd place,
you makde me forget bout de person!
you always cheer me up jus by ur smile!
brighten my whole day!
i seriously am sorry,
for not be able to stop dis strong feeling,
n i jus wanna tel you dat,
i love so..
and ill be waitin no matter wat.
i love you..




ahhh!
todae was fun la!saw ALOT of ppl from st margs!god!!
hahahha!so funni!!!
went out wif all sec1s!!felt left out!
but at last nv!cos they treat me lik their own circle of frenz!wee~
ya!wanted to watch initial d but end up GHOST TRAIN!!!
BAHHH!!!SCARY!!!BUT SAD AT LASTz!
hahhahah!b4 dat alot of stuffs happen..
we went cine..
den wait 3 princesses!!gloria,monkey n charite!!
haiyo!!!i in bus keep on aksin me where was i when actually they were still at glorias house ah!!!
make me rush lik hel!!!ahhh!!!
densaw jesslynn,sylvia dat group...
saw louisa dat group...
saw gaya dat group oso...
ya!den took neoprint b4 movie!
yea!had fun!!
except wen THEY go SHOPPING!im de ODD one out la!!!
cos im not interested in ANY stuff they were lookin at!
haiz..kkkden rush off to tuition!
was late for few minutes!
heng took cab wif monkey!
i stop her at queenstown..
den i went tuition lor!
so freakin tired!!
was very very blurr durin tuition!!
but mr michael understand!
he sae last time he lik dat oso..hahah!
ya...i MISS YOU!!!!
I MISS YOU!!!
LOTSSS!!!
MISS YOUR SMILE!!
MISS EEVRYTHING!!!
oltho i saw sum1 hu ppl tink is better den u,
I DUN CARE!
YOUR MY EVERYTHING!




haiz..i very lazy to go out later sia!!i scared!!!later im de odd one out lor!all sec1 except me!!!boohoo!!!surely wan lor ill feel left out!cos its lik im not so close to titi's fren all wat!bahhh!!so saddd!!!howhowhowhowhow!!!!fifi breathe in...breathe out!!!kewl down!!MAN WAT IM GONNA WEAR!!!!iVE NO CLOTHES!!!AHHHHH!!!SHITSHITSHIT!!!AHHH!!!kk...nvmd..fifi chill...chilll....huuuuuuuuuuuuuuusssiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!kk..i better get going.needa bath.den needa choose wat to wear.den needa go tak bus//cos needa meet them at cine by 11 lor!bahhh!so early!can die man!!!i confirm wil be late wan!hahahahh!as usual!!!kk.gotta go..bie!anw.i miss 16!!!




haiz..yesterday came back form my aunts hse..den thot i can do my hmwk.den my mind cant work lor!jus cant tink of ANYTHING!totally forgot of all de stuff ive learnt!!ahhh!tanks to 16!! keep on tinkin bout 16!!cant leave me alone lor!ahhh!i dunno whether its love,like or hate can!wats dis!you jus took over zebra's place jus lik dat!i dono hu i like now oso!16 jus came lik dat and take my heart away!and it actually makes me forget zebra TOTALLY!which is a good thing n a bad thing! good thing is cos i wil forget bout zebra!de bad thing is dat i have another crush!!!!ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!wen is dis gonna end man!!!i hate dis!one prob goes away!another comes by!wat de hell is disZ!AHHHH!!all dis shit for me!man!k!i jus dun feel lik bloggin!im gna stop here!




kk..im SICK AGAIN!AHHHH!IRRITATIN MAN DIS COUGH!den i tink im gonna lose my voice!!!ahhhh!!!later lik camp dat time no voice cant sing!boohoo!!!hahhahahhaha!haiz...nvmd..i CAN survive..hahhaha!k..just now had band la..it was fun at last!but firstfirst was not realli nice..cos mr tan bad mood!but he was ok after dat!we enjoyed it summore ah!esp de rythm exercise!hahahah!so funny can!hahhah!den got one of de piece is de sopranos r suppose to sin la..den de bass n de lower woodwinds play...so nice can!hahahha!we can bcm a choir band sia!our singin not bad u noe!hahhahahha!den i manage to play de running notes!woohoo!!!!so funn!!!hahahhah!den saw 16 in de mornin lik dat la.cheers me up sia!hhahahhaa!so funny!hahhahahhahaha!wen i told brudder, brudder was lik laughing lik mad la!oh ya! den maths was lik supersuper fun!cos i noe how to do!hahahha!den for chem...me,brudder,rachel mak[elastic gurl] n lammpost!we had DO MUCH FUN!esp playing brudder's bal!!!hahhahah!so funny!i was lik laughin my ass out la!gagaggahhahah!den RACHEL MAK!I SO ANGRY WIF YTOU!BOOHOO!!!U CAL ME GARFIELD MALAY VERSION!!!HMMPPHHH!!!den ah! dat rachel ah n lammppost ah!always make fun of my ear wan u noe!so saddenin!!!cos my ear is very very diff from other ppl..den it looks funny la!den ppl always play wif it!booohhhooo!im ABNORMAL!hahahhahahha!den from jus now..i cal rachel "elastic gurl".hahahha!oh ya!den she keep on starin at me!purposely wan lor!wanna scaree me!cos im scared of ppl hu have long hair den stare at me!so SCARY!!!HAHAHAH!ok la..gotta go n rest!im not feelin well!biebie!!!love 16!!!

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