memories of-yesterday

Friday, December 1 ♥

come sit right next to me
just hear what ive got to say
tht i love you but i dont want you
tht i cant let go but i dont wish for you to stay

yea i know im not making sense
i myself cant understand
but i know when your near me
i just feel so tensed

its like i cant trust whtever you say
whtever happens tomorrow
can actually me the opposite of today

ive got enoguh of your lies
ive got enough of frickle minded ness
till now i feel so numb
feel as if my heads gonna burst

please i ask of you
please stop doing this to me
if you have someone new,just look at me in the eye
and say, "FEE LET GO OF ME!"

i promise you without any hesitation
ill stop waiting for you
i wont ever come your way anymore
ill even stop contacting too

please i beg of you
stop playing with my feelings
yes i know you mean SO MUCH to me
how long more i need to go through this hurting

please understand my situation
i LOVE YOU SO BLARDY MUCH
but i know its one sided
actually even though i miss you and all,
im somehow happy we ended

im weird right?
i know.
a ya.
FEEFI WHATS WRONG WITH YOU.
TODAY SHE LIKE THIS.
TOMRO SHE WILL BE LIKE THT.
dont fall for it?
i dont know.
/her eyes kills

wht i did for you for your birthday
was i could afford and thought of.
if you dont get the main idea,
well im here to say it out.
you mean like so darn much to me.
you asked me if i hate rihanna song-unfaithful?
wanna know something?
i like the song.
but hate it cause of you.
i hate the feeling of losing you.
even though ive lost you long time ago.
okaye.
am i making sense?
dont think so.
okaye forget it.
/i love you.
please understand me.
i ask for nothing more but just for you,
to tell me to give up on you.
dont know if you'll understand this.
but if ever come the time tht i hate you like shiat,
its all cause i love you.
maybe i have no rights to use the word 'love' to you.
i know its wrong.
if 'love' isnt the word,
i dont know wht else it is.
but i know i never felt like these before.

no one made me like this before.
no one made me so happy before.
but yet,
no one has made me cry as much before.
no one made e breakdown before.
only you.

♥remembered yesterday @ 1:24 AM