Thursday, November 9 ♥
its been a long time since i blog.
heh.
been busy.
ive been busy thinking bout my life.
and how much ive been wasting my life
living in a world of lies
living in a world of impossible hopes.
thanks cai for waking me up.
i mean after you said all those.
i was darn angry.
but not at you.
but at myself/
talked to jas.
bathed like mad.
till i was too weak to even talk.
so i tried to sleep.
ended up sleeping at 3.
woke up late then went to school at 10.
saw bro and start
bathing again.
shish.
went for band.
pretended nothing happened.
but everytime i played the tuba tears were just waiting to flow.
it was a drastic day man.
but i thought to myself.
i mean. band is band.
outside band is outside band.
my section was unusually quiet.
so thanks to chin i became hyper again.
then my section started to get high too.
just love them.
i mean now i realise how much time ive been wasting,
lying to myself.
if she dont care why must i.
thses few days its very strange of me to actually
hate thinking of her.
so i ended up not thinking bout her.
darn man.
i cant explain how much freedom i felt.
im happy with the way it is now.
maybe i just want to move on with my life.
maybe after im done with the gifts.
then i wanna move on.
move on with my life.
without you in it.
maybe thats best for both of us.
tuba section.
i just want to tell you guys tht
i love you guys to bits.
♥remembered yesterday @ 1:04 PM
