Thursday, June 9 ♥
REGRET!REGRET!i duno why i even PUCHED de BLOODY wall all cos of YOU!u acted lik u din care wen u saw my hand!but i noe u do..if not ALOT...maybe jus a tiny bit..but im satisfied..jus noeing de facts dat u sumhow cared..sigh..cant get you out of my mind!you're always der stuck in my mind!just couldnt take it dat dae..and without thinkin twice ipunched de BLOODY wall n few of my CD covers!now its sprained!sigh..now im typin wif my left hand!so tirin..n my right hand is SO PAIN!its sumthin to do wif de bone la..not de veins..cant anyone undersand dat..even de doc!ahhh!my bone hurts!not my veins!but...dis pain is not as HURTFUL as how much u've HURT me!!!dis pain can be CURED...but de PAIN u gave me n de things u do to HURT me can NEVER be cured!!!NEVER!!its just lik an arrow stabs rite thru my heart!wen i msg you..ill wait for de whole for ur reply..but ill always end be hurt cos u wont reply me..wen i sae hi..ull ignore n pretend NUTHING happened!now you hurt me...i dun mind..you can hurt me as much as you want to..just to make you happy..dat dae i saw you laughing wif ur frenz..i felt relieved..cos i noe dat ur doing okkie...i juts wanna tel you dat if u do not have anyone to talk to or lend a shoulder to cry on..ill ALWAYS BE HERE!!just FOR YOU!even if i have to argue wif ANYONE just to talk to YOU!i dun bloody CARE!cos NOTHING matters to me besides YOU!!NOTHING!cos YOU'RE EVERYTHING to me!n i realli meant wat i said wen i sae dat u mean de world to me!wen i mis you..ill always listen to de conversation dat we had last time which i recorded...you sound so sweet..but dat time u were not talking to me..cos i asked my fren to cal you wif my fon..den i recorded..you realli sound sweet!how i wish you were not talking to my fren but was talking to me instead!ill always wait for dat dae..even if it takes AGES to get dat!you said we were frenz but why dun you allow me to talk to you??why???sum1 told me dat u don wanna talk to me cos u were afraid dat u bein nice to me will make me like you more!YES I OWN UP!it will DEFINITELY make me like you more!but i noe my limits!you said we are frenz and nnot MORE dan dat!okie fine!i accept!but u seem to not give me even ONE PARTICULAR CHANCE!!why!!!!i thot likin dis sum1 else will make me forget bout YOU!but i dun think so!it doesnt even change my feelings even a tiny bit!NUTHING!!GOSH!i seriously dono wat else i shoul;d do to forget you!my frenz hu noe dat i punched de wall cos i was too frustrated bout you tink si was just being stupid!but they DO NOT KNOW HOW I FEEL N HOW BAD U TREAT ME!!!they dun BLOODY KNOW!!!AHHHH!!SHI9T MAN!!BLOODY SHIT!ok..i tink i better stop typin..my left hand get tired aweadi...ok..
♥remembered yesterday @ 2:37 PM
