CANDID SHOT EILEEN TOOK OF ME!` 





now i was scaredz!hahahhah!but still i won her 3 times in a row!wee~hahahah!had to stop cos ms shen caught us playin in de rain!hahah! 





i tryin to get meimei leg but she moved!hahahhaz!she was super scared lor!hahha! 





both us "scissors paper stone" first b4 we play pepsi cola!haha 





me and meimei 




I find myself staring at your number,
Wondering if i should call or if your hoping that i would,but what would i say?
no matter what i know that it was never meant to be,
and even though i found someone new,the memories of us won't fade away.
you left your print in my heart
and i know that i will always and forever remember your name.
so i move on,
but very slowly,
new hurt and pain wash over me whenever i see your face,
and tears come to my eyes whenever i remember your quote,
so clearly as if you were screaming it in my ear:"i love her.. but i just don't want her."




Everyone tells me to move on,
but I know I won't belong.
You were always true,
untill the day we were thru!
Is this really what i want?
Is this what I really need?
Now i know what makes my heart bleed!




I walked in th darkness .
The rain had past.
I felt this pane would forever last.
Cast aside as if not even thereI gave her all my love but her heart was just bare.
And now a man I am outside
Looking as if someone I loved had just died.
And someone did.
A part of me.
Parts of me are still dieing.
She looked like a butterfly and stung like a bee.
Why did she make such a fool of me.
Love makes fools of all of us.
We will try to love but all we get is a big fat lie and then big fat betrayal.
I've been longing for this love.
I though my hunger was satisfied.
But I was wrong and now I feel I will starve till the end.
Am I finished?
Is it the end?
Or will I find someone much more than a friend?
Will you love me?
Will you try?
Or will you leave me here to die?
And if you do..... may I ask why?
Don't be easy on me there's no need to lie.
Just tell me all my problems.
And I'll fix them or at least I'll try.
She looked like an angle.....but she crawled up from Hell....But did I know this?
No I really couldn't tell.
But life goes on and I know that...
In this realm of which we live in Hell exists.
If life is so good why do we call it a b`tch?
She was so sweet.....
But she's really a witch!
Why!?
Why!?
If love is the best way to live why must it make you want to die!?!?
Why is all I ask!
I only ask why!
But now I do feel sad
and I do feel mad
and I feel the wish to die!
Don't speak a word!
Shut up I tell you!
Nothing will change my mind!
I stand here
In the road with rain drops on the ground and some on my coat and I just cant live!
Oh no I won't!
I hold a gun to my head soon I shall be dead.
And no one will be there to mess with my heart and my head!
BANG
THUMP




I hear the sound of confined laughter and my heart tinges with jealousy.
Down the hallway the echoes of footsteps haunt me,
and I am filled with melancholy.
I am inside this circle of friendship
I am outside the circle of trust.
You always loved her more, so, why does it bother me that much?
Mama always told me, "don't ever let them see you cry,"
but she never warned me that it would be such a bittersweet lie.
The tears that hurt the most are the ones that no one can see.
But the pain that burns the most is the one you sear inside of me.




My heart frowns
My heart sways
My heart cries
My heart plummets down, down.
My heart doesn't know the meaning of happiness.
My heart only knows the meaning of pure misery.
You may wonder what ails my heart
The only answer to that can never be reveled.
If anyone knew the pain that surrounds my heart
That person may just want to cry, for they would know that the pain is one that can never be healed.
The pain is so beyond comprehension
The pain is so strong that it will never yield.
My heart has become like a plane that has lost all of it's engines
The only fate for it to undergo, is to plummet and end in a huge crash
Everyone on the flight screams for fear, but their destiny is one that will just end in explosion, no matter the panic they put up.
Just like that flight, that's how my heart feels.
It screams to be saved, but no savior will save it.
Its only destiny is to crash and burn.




kk..im lik so sos o high today!esp in clas la!hahhaha!den recess and lunch was soooo fun!hahah!de sad part brudder was not around cos bballers every wed hav recess together..ya...but me,alex,jimin n rachel!hahahah!so funny!we played MY WALLET as usual!and AS USUAL I BCM DE MONKEY!!take advantage of me can! just bcs im SHORT!HMMPHH!ahhhahha!yea!aniwae it was still fun!yea!den now im at com lab!its been a long time since i use de com in de lab!hahah!yea!den maybe waiting for sum1 to finish cca lor..yea!err..wait just to see de person..den go home!hahah!todae i BANKRUPT!no money!cos i used all my money yesterday...yea...den in class!me,alex,jimin n rachel keep takin photos!hahhaha!its lik as if its de last dae of skewl!actually its just de 4th day of skewl reopen lor..hahha..den malay class also we took photos..den took wif cikgu.cikgu so cute can!she gave a sour face la!ppl ask to smile she give "masam" face can!den malay clas was fun!yea..errr...den like dat lor..den todae..i kept on playing de guitar wif AB.we made our 3rd song!and dis will be my 4th song!hahha!im so hpi la!den AB taught me how to play "you are my only one" by yellowcard.yea.den now i noe how to play.oni dat im playin not de same speed as AB yet la.but im tryin!yea!now im sumwhere der!so watch out AB!hahah!ur student gna take over you!woohoo!yea..kk...dun feel lik bloggin!tired after takin pictures!hahah!biebie!

[iloveyouforever]




okokok..today was funfunfunfun!!!
hahhahahahah!
i dono why la.den was so so so high during band la!hahhahahahZ!
actually de whole dae i shall sae!
cos slept late yesterday! slept at 3.30 wif brudder!hahahhah!
den durin bio i cannot take it!so freakin tired!eyes cannot open!
hahahha!den ms poh..i tink she noes im tired or sumthing.but i tried to listen tho..ya.den i accidentally slept can!hahahha!wen i woke up!everybody was greetin ms poh aweadi!hahahha!
yea..
kk...den art! was fun!me,rachel mark n brudder!was tinkin dirty!not me k!it was rachel n brudder la!hahahhaha!so funnie!hahhahah!den we laugh laugh laugh until cannot tahhan can!hahah!yea..den huiling brifdae.gave her pressie.yea..den wish kayminn hapi belated.yea..den summore wat ah?
i forget la!k!mum n dad's back !gtg.byeeee!




i dont know,
if i am the one for you in this life,
i cant help,
hearing my voice calling your name,
cos when i,
trying so hard not to look in your eyes,
maybe i,
have fallen in love with you..

i cant so describe how im feeling deep inside,
so much more than i can say,
with ur touch it feels so right,
o my ur so near,
all the time in this place,
for you now in my heart,
i will never let you go,
in this life time.....
do you know why...
o baby,
cos
you're just so beautiful to me....


well tonight,
baby the sound i can hear you breathe,
its alive,
to see you smile with those tears in your eyes,
they may say,
you're just a girl in this spinning world,
in my heart,
you're like a world to me...


i cant so describe how im feeling deep inside,
so much more than i can say,
with your touch it feels so right,
o my you're so near,
all the time in this place,
for you're now in my heart,
i will never let you go,
in this life time...
do you know why...
o baby,
cos
you're just so beautiful to me./...


touch my hand,
feel my heart,
hold me close and you'll find me,
you'll find me...
cos you're beautiful..
to me....




heyhey!!okok..its been quite long i din blog ya! haiz..how to lbog!muggin sia!bahhh!so sad!!nv sleep for de past 2 days lor!haiz..got eye bags liao!!boohoo!den oh ya!cant cut hair!dad dun allow!so i went to talk to my mum..den she sae next sunday!wee~as long as still i can cut can liao!hahahahh!i miss my frenz!i miss you all!!miss brudder,alex,jimin,cheryl,siti,arti,cas, and so much more la!!!nearly de whole clas la!hahahah!miss you all!haiz..cant wait!im lookin forward to meet my frenz not de SKEWL!dun get me wrong!hahahahahha!ya!hahah!okie!aniwae..i cant wai tto meet sum1 too!yuupssa!miss you!biee!!love you all! 




okie...i just finish studyin..restin for awhile..later study again!haiz..now guess wat im doing..im like sitting down on de floor typin!!so kewl!hahahhaha!ya...den de screen is like so far away from me la..havin difficulty seein!!haiz...but nvmd...ITS SO FUN TO TYPE!!while sitting down on de floor...i brought de whole keyboard on de floor and began typing!!hahahah!oh ya...hmm..dis friday watchi sjc perform..yupppsss...near conference hall..wee~going wif sharon,titi,brudder[maybe..haven yet]..meimei[maybe oso]...and dono hu else la..hahha..oh ya...errr.cant wait for skewl to reopen!miss my frenz so much!!haiz..miss you guys alot man!!dis week have been studyin ALOT!man! im a FREAK!GUAI GIA!!hahHAHHashhahah!!titi oso...hahahah!!just now dam funny can!she sae she needa go offline..den i sae 5minutes i going offline..den she sae okie...den i din go offline.!she kept on BUGGIN ME TO GO OFFLINE CAN!!HAHAH!she will be lik IT 10 MINUTES!FATSR GO OFFLINE!!!HAHAHHA!den i was irritated !so i went offline n study!hahhahah!but hey!she made me study ya!hahahaah!okie..thanks titi!yups..okie...den..ermm..oh ya! section outing!!we al planning to go sentosa!wee~will be so fun sia!!HAHAH!oh ya! den ask valerie..to go along wif tuba section...as in her whole section..so oni MAYBE la..not confirm...she said mus ask her section..yupss..!aniwaes..yupss..i tink dats about all!oh ya!wait!another thing!!i finish my HOMEWORK!!SKEWL HOMEWORK ALL DONEZ!!but now left wif TONES AND TONES OF TUITION HMWK!!BOOHOO=((so saddenin!but nvmd...on friday n saturday i wanna go out!i dun care man!hahahah!its de last 2 days of "enjoy" day!!hee...cos sunday will be de rushin day to do tuition hmwk!ahhhh!!but hey!its an improvement u noe!since primary skewl...alway6s de last sunday of de holiday ill be rushin SKEWL hmwk! but now change liao!TUITION HMWK!!AHHH!SO SADD@!!!cos tuition is monday,tuesday!!sunday!AHHHHH!!so irritatin!but de teacher is fun!!wenever i cal de tutor by his name...reminds me of my cat!!HAHAHH!cos his name is mr michael u c..n my cat name is michael!hahHAHAHahah!so funii!!!even my dad kept on laughin bout it!oni dat he took a week to understand!hahah!okie dats all!bie~wanna play gunbound for awhile!




okieee...wee~
now just came back from tuition! gosh! so many tones of homework!!!
ahhhhhh!!!
but nvmd!mus mug moreeee!!
havew to buck up!!
yuppss!
okiee...dis few days is all bout..
cum back from hols..
den study study study tuitiontuition!!
ahhhhh!im goinm nuts!!
haiz..but nvmd..i CANNOT RETAIN!!
MUST WORK HARD!JIA YOU!!
ya..okkiee...
den finished readin de book!!
de wellington dog is killed by Christopher's OWN DAD!!
MAN!SO SADDENIN FOR CHRIS!den his mum is NOT DEAD!
so sad...boohoo!
and chris gotta do his Maths A level examination!!so clever!!
hahah!den hje passed!!!
okieee...ermm...ya.
den oh ya!!! i wanna cut my hair!!!ahh! so freakin thick liao!!!
haiz...but nvmd.cutting hair aniwae! yea!!




heyhey! i wont blog for de whole week ya! going hols! wee! yups...okie...but im gonna miss YOU so MUCH!!yupss...aniwae..i confirm..nuthing gna change my feelings! i do have feelings for YOU! ya..im sori..but ya...but im tryin to stop it..so dun worry...k...gotta go..dad''s makin noise..biee!!




okie..todae was all bout BAND BAND BAND! yupss! it was fun!hahaha! as usual la..okie..it start out in de mornin!woke up quite late la...but wasnt late to meet curry n titi jus bcs of dat...i was late cause i was held up at home..yupss..sori u guys..realli sori..seriously..ya..okkie...tmro going overseas..have NO idea where de hell we're going but...nvmd...i shal jus follow..yupss..hee!
oh ya...den they dinm follow cos they had band b4 us u c..hee!!ya...so me n sharon rush to mcs den we ate..ya...den we eateateat finish den it was practically rainin la!! den had no choice so we had to take a cab!!!hahhahaah!!den went for band..den YOU!! saw YOU!! but i dun bloody CARE!!ahhh! DUN SMILE TO ME!! IT WILL MAKE ME LIKE YOU MORE!AND I DUN WAN DAT TO HAPPEN!!! I DUN WANN!!!! i MUST hate you!!!!! cos im scared daT if i like you!! you'll do de same things dat zebra did to me and HURT ME SO BADLY AGAIN! i DUN WANNA BE HURT AGAIN!!!PLSSSS!!!!pls GO AWAY FROM ME!!PLS!hate me lik zebra do!!!plsss!!!dun smile to me!dun talk to me! i beg you! i rather we ENEMIES dan FRENZ! ur too innocent! i dun wanna change you!




why did you do this..
leavin me here..
leavin me here all alone..
alone again!

cant you see me tryin..
tryin to survive..
tryin to survive here..
WITHOUT you by my side..

cant you feel it..
cant you see it..
give me a chance n ill give you ALL my love..

ooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhh...

you always guide me and take de lead,
you are de oni reason i leave,
you are my strength wen i am weak,
you are my everything...

everythign to me..
you mean de world to me...
to meeeeeee...
you mean de world to me..

cant you feel it,
cant you see it,
give me..de...chance..
and i'll give...you...all...myyyyyy
LOVEE....

dis is a COMPLETE song for you la..
ya..i make wan..if not nice sori..
but de words means alot to me!




why did you do this..
leavin me here..
leavin me here all alone..
alone again!

cant you see me tryin..
tryin to survive..
tryin to survive here..
WITHOUT you by my side..

cant you feel it..
cant you see it..
give me a chance n ill give you ALL my love..

ooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhh...

you always guide me and take de lead,
you are de oni reason i leave,
you are my strength wen i am weak,
you are my everything...

everythign to me..
you mean de world to me...
to meeeeeee...
you mean de world to me..

cant you feel it,
cant you see it,
give me..de...chance..
and i'll give...you...all...myyyyyy
LOVEE....

dis is a COMPLETE song for you la..
ya..i make wan..if not nice sori..
but de words means alot to me!




am i in love??
or am i crazy??
im still in love wif you...

shedded tears all fateful nights..
always wishin dat ull be by my side..
holdin hands wif each other..
wishin dat we'll be together...

am i in love..
or am i crazy..
im still in love wif you...

dis song i made last 3 weeks..
its incomplete la..yar..
but its just for you...oni you..




okie...todae din go for band!
you noe why!
cos of dat TUITION la!
haiz..
but it was kinda of fun la!
my tutor was a guy..
gotta noe he was an ex-st andrews!!
hahhha!like watever n so!
hahhaa..lik i bloody care la..hahha!
but he's kewl la!
he teach one time i understand..
haha..
and guess wat!
i was a guai gia de whoeld ay!!!
now im lik studyin again!!!
im MUGGIN!!
i was paying attention de whole time!!!!
bought sum1 de burfdae gift liao..
hahhaa...
it's a stupid gift la..but its cute..
just hope de person likes it and dun throw it away..
previous gift i tink she threw it away la..
haiz...but its okie...
haiz...okie..i needa stop here cos needa mug more!
okieee..biieee!!




OMFG!!
cant believe i dreamt of PE PERSON!!
MAN!!
and its seriously a veryvery good dream..
we made frenz..
but obviously..!!!its ONI A DREAM!!
haiz..
im scared i lik de person!!
gosh!
wat if i do!!
NO I CANT!
i lik zebra oni!
not pe person!!
NOOOOOO!!!
I CANT!!!
I DUN EVEN FREAKIN NOE DE PE PEROSN LA!!!
and i DUN WANNA NOE!
cos de eprson oso dun wan wat!
so for VAT!!
AHHH!!
shit!
din noe dis will happen!!
din noe de gossip wil cum true!!!
no!!!
i mus not!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!




man!
i hate dis!!
why do you always appear in my mind!!
why!!
i dun wan!!!
i wanna forget you!!
i realli do!
oltho i still love you!!
pls get out!!
HATE ME!
BEAT ME!
SCOLD ME!
do ANYTHING to make me HATE you!!
i HAVE to!
cos im HURT ENOUGH!!
i can take it NO MORE!
SERIOUSLY!!
PLS!
I BEG YOU!




wee~
went to phua chu kang musical just now!!
woohoo!
so fun...
hahhhahahahah!
but errr...
cos i sit beside brudder..
den beside brudder is titi..
den beside titi was meimei..
yar..
den most of de time meimei talk to titi..
den me wif brudder...
me n brudder tried to talk but..
errrr..
we thot meimei n titi angry or sum stuff..
yaaa.
so we decided to continue watchin la..
yar..
felt very very awkward just now seriously..ya..
okie...forget bout it..
ya..
oki...




all dis while,
ive been keepin quiet...
bout me lovin you still..
cos i dun wana hurt you...

cos if you noe dat i still love you,
you'll avoid me...
and it'll hurt badly..

pls dun hurt me..
im beggin you...
my heart's shattered now..

i feel lik showin you my heart..
all shattered n broken into pieces..
all cos of YOU!

isit not enough for you..
afetr ive sacrificed alot of stuff for YOU!
bought all de stuff u wanted..
do all de thigns just to me u happy..

wen are you gonna accept me for hu i am..
wen??
however long it takes for you to decide..
i'll be waiting..
waiting here...
for your answer..
be it a good or a bad news...
cis I LOVE YOU wif all my heart..
your de reason why i look forward for every morning...
just to look at ur face and look at ur smile..
i love you..
and will always do..




REGRET!REGRET!i duno why i even PUCHED de BLOODY wall all cos of YOU!u acted lik u din care wen u saw my hand!but i noe u do..if not ALOT...maybe jus a tiny bit..but im satisfied..jus noeing de facts dat u sumhow cared..sigh..cant get you out of my mind!you're always der stuck in my mind!just couldnt take it dat dae..and without thinkin twice ipunched de BLOODY wall n few of my CD covers!now its sprained!sigh..now im typin wif my left hand!so tirin..n my right hand is SO PAIN!its sumthin to do wif de bone la..not de veins..cant anyone undersand dat..even de doc!ahhh!my bone hurts!not my veins!but...dis pain is not as HURTFUL as how much u've HURT me!!!dis pain can be CURED...but de PAIN u gave me n de things u do to HURT me can NEVER be cured!!!NEVER!!its just lik an arrow stabs rite thru my heart!wen i msg you..ill wait for de whole for ur reply..but ill always end be hurt cos u wont reply me..wen i sae hi..ull ignore n pretend NUTHING happened!now you hurt me...i dun mind..you can hurt me as much as you want to..just to make you happy..dat dae i saw you laughing wif ur frenz..i felt relieved..cos i noe dat ur doing okkie...i juts wanna tel you dat if u do not have anyone to talk to or lend a shoulder to cry on..ill ALWAYS BE HERE!!just FOR YOU!even if i have to argue wif ANYONE just to talk to YOU!i dun bloody CARE!cos NOTHING matters to me besides YOU!!NOTHING!cos YOU'RE EVERYTHING to me!n i realli meant wat i said wen i sae dat u mean de world to me!wen i mis you..ill always listen to de conversation dat we had last time which i recorded...you sound so sweet..but dat time u were not talking to me..cos i asked my fren to cal you wif my fon..den i recorded..you realli sound sweet!how i wish you were not talking to my fren but was talking to me instead!ill always wait for dat dae..even if it takes AGES to get dat!you said we were frenz but why dun you allow me to talk to you??why???sum1 told me dat u don wanna talk to me cos u were afraid dat u bein nice to me will make me like you more!YES I OWN UP!it will DEFINITELY make me like you more!but i noe my limits!you said we are frenz and nnot MORE dan dat!okie fine!i accept!but u seem to not give me even ONE PARTICULAR CHANCE!!why!!!!i thot likin dis sum1 else will make me forget bout YOU!but i dun think so!it doesnt even change my feelings even a tiny bit!NUTHING!!GOSH!i seriously dono wat else i shoul;d do to forget you!my frenz hu noe dat i punched de wall cos i was too frustrated bout you tink si was just being stupid!but they DO NOT KNOW HOW I FEEL N HOW BAD U TREAT ME!!!they dun BLOODY KNOW!!!AHHHH!!SHI9T MAN!!BLOODY SHIT!ok..i tink i better stop typin..my left hand get tired aweadi...ok..




okie..let me update on wat i did todae..was so FUN!!hahah!okie firstly got lesson!hahah!guess wat!de lesson starts at 10..me n brudder woke up at 9.45!!!!HAHAHHA!!so funiZ!both of us msg each other at de same time wen we woke up!hahahha!cos we woke up at de same time mah!hahahah!den both of us rushed der!hmm..brudder reached early!but i reached later!hahah!den reach ard 11.00 lyk dat!we thot we were de oni ones late!but gues wat! jimin msged brudder n said dat she jus woke up!hahahah!den wen we on de way going humans room..den we saw pz n mai!hahahah!they said tghey were late too!aggagaga!!den me n brudder went to buy drinks den we went up..ewen we went to de humans..there were oni 10 pathetic ppl!!oh ya! okie..so de th9ing starts at 10 rite...it wil end at 11.30 n me n brudder went up to clas at 11.15!!!hahah!den de clas clapped hands wen we went in!haah!den okie aweadi...both me n brudder brought oni pencil case along wif our 2 BIG BAGS!hahah!wil badminton racket!hahaha!dne mrs syam ask us to go take keys frm major! so we went..den major talking to sum polieman..ya..so we waited..den by de time we got de key..we realised de whole lesson ended!!!hahahah!its lyk we nv learn ANYTHING CAN!!hahahhahahah!IT WAS SO FUNNI CAN!!hahahhahahaha!okie..den everything ended la..so we met meimei den went to my house to change la..cos we want to play badminton..so after change den we went down la..den play for half an hour..we went to eat at coffee shop..den afetr we eat..me n meimei challenged each other la..ya..firstly i won!den we still wanted to play..so playplayplay..den w/o us realising we played more den 11 matches..hahahha!den another thing..we also din realise dat brudder went to sleep at de corner on de bench lyk NO ONE'S BUSINESS CAN!hahhahaha!she lik apek lik dat!hahhahaha!den we actually went der to play badminton..me n meimei play..but joyce SLEPT ALL DE WAY!!hahahhahaha!!den afetr few hours of FUN..we went back to my house la..den we were watchin triple 9!its so nice!used to be my fav show last time!yups..den we ate de food my grandma cooked!yummy!!den afetr an hour in my house..they went home!!yupss!its not realli a long dae la..but its nice!hee!!we'll be playing bball another i tink..me n brudder planned..hahah!or bowling!yea!!!!okie...i gtg n bath! hahaha1!me very stinky n sticky!!!yupss!bye!!!

all de daes ive spent,
all de minutes n seconds ive spent,
you are the one hum i always think bout!!




everything i do,
you'll be there stuck in my mind!
wen i close my eyes,
i see YOUR face!
wen i sleep,
i dream of YOU!
but WHY!
i mean why YOU outa all dos ppl i know hu r much more better looking than YOU!!
haizzz...
my fwenz keep on telling me dat spendin my time on YOU is totally WASTED!
well...i know dat LONG time ago..
i TRIED to FORGET!
but de more i try to HATE YOU,
i realise the more i have feelings FOR YOU!
why must i live in a world full of torture!!
i HATE NO ONE ELSE but YOU!
i LOVE NO ONE ELSE but YOU!!
everything is ALL BOUT YOU!
and no one ELSE!
i know for de facts dat ur SCARED of me n u HATE ME!!
dats why i HATE youu!!
but if i think again!
wen i try to hate you!i tend to love you more!
ppl tink im CRAZY waitin for YOU!
cos they noe dat YOU WIL NEVER love me de way how i love YOU!
but i dun CARE wta PPL THINK!
even i MYSELF noe dat ul NEVER LOVE me...or eevn shal i sae be FRENZ wif me..
but still...
i LOVE YOU..
yes i DO!
so MUCH dat ill do ANYTHING for YOU!




no...i dun hate you!i love you!!ill always doo!!but i just need ONE CHANCE!oni ONE!!cant you at least give me one chance??jus one!i just needa talk to you...as in..oni both of us!talk on de phone or sumthing...but how to!we dun even talk wen we meet!wat de heck rte!!wen i talk to you..u giv me dat BLOODY face!!yrrgghhh!!!HATE IT WEN U GIVE ME DT FACE!!haiz...its okie...as lognas i see you happy..im happy too..jus wanna see you smile..dats all..i dun wanna see u frown..pls don...if im makin u frown..ill get out from ur life..n ill c u evrytime from a distance..cos nuthign is gna make me change my feelings for you!NUTHIGN!i dun cre wat ppl sae..!cos ilove you!!n i noe u noe it!i just hope u can accept my love! 




GOSH!how i wish...i can jus pas u a long sharp KNIFE! or BLADDER!n u just STAB me in my heart!!!!!rather den u kp on doing things which HURTS ME SLOWLY!!it hurts badly!!!GOSH!firstly..it hurts wen u dun talk to me!secondly..it hurts wen u pretend i DUN EXIST in ur life!den it HURTS wen u speak to me like im a STRANGER to you!SERIOUSLY!!!ISIT WRONG TO FALL IN LOVE YOU!AND BE FAITHFUL TO YOU!!!if it IS,den tel me de REASON WHY!!cos i NEEDA HEAR IT FORM YOU!!GOSH!WHY DID I EVEN LIKE YOU IN DE FIRST PLACE!!MAN!!I HATE YOU!!!!I HATE YOU!!!I HATE YOU!! 




heyheyhey!!!okie..dis is not all de pics i took la..got few more..but dun wanna put all..hee!yupss...aniwae..i dun feel lik being online or blogin todae..cos my mind is concentratin on YOU!yes YOU! YOU no hu im talking bout!YOU should...cos i oni love YOU and NO ONE else!! 





me n adlii!!! 





man! can u c de fake smile i gave! thanks to my STUPID ULCER!boohoo! 





but sad....cos its oni 2 pathetic days!!! 





gosh! i cant believed my eyes!de whole 3 storey hse belong to me n ONI ME! for whole 2 days! 





this toilet..onli belong to me dat whole 2 days too!wee~ 





this bed belonged to me dat whole 2 days!hahah! 




its been a LONGGG TIMEE since ive update my blog ritez..heee!okie...now im updatingn lor..but dunno wat to sae...ya...oh ya! just came back from aunts house..ya..wah! de whole dae kept going u n down de 3 storeys can!so tiring!!go down always to take drink...den go up to watch dvd...HAHAH!den de maid was fed up wif me..she got ready for me a bottle..hahah!den she sae..."u stay up der n no need to cum down liao..i prepare bottle already okie?"hahahah!i was lik laughing la!den took pics wif my couz..den POLAYED de whole day!!it was so FUN!haiz...okiela...i dun feel lik bloggin...too tired..biee!




tinkin bout you....
missing you...














i still love you and i noe i have to stop lying to myself..now its lik de 4th moth??gosh! dats long man!din bother bout for 1 n a half moth..i suffered in pain!cos just to forget bout u for a second is a TORTURE!wat about a month man!shit la!den yesterday talked to you!OMG!TALKED TO YOU OK! iw as so sos so so so so so HAPI!!!hear ur voice just makes me happy!den wen u laugh..just melts me!c u smile makes me melt more!

wen i look into ur eyes,its realli an undescridable thing!seriously!n wen i close my eyes..i can see ur face..smiling to me..wen i hear ur voice..!! gosh! its unbearable!after all dis nice things..den wen i think bout de truth de facts! it HURTS DEEPLY!!realli!! just knowing de truth bout you dun even bother wehther i exist..just hurts me.day by day..u break my hurt..now my heart is CRASHED all cos of YOU!dun ask me who! cos YOU know hu im referring to..cos YOU know i DO LOVE YOU!but u prefer not to...wat is dis??i do all de sacrifice for you..n u enjoying hurting me?? wats dis?why mus i always get hurtful things in return? why???




u cry i wipe all ur tears,
u dream i wipe all ur fears,
[amenda]

just when i think ive learn of de wya to live,
life changes..
[mai]

i miss you!dun ask who,cos its YOU!
and YOU know hu im referring to!!
[me]

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